When Day 32 Starts...

Chapter 24 - Dear Past

We all got that scar that holds a lot of memories. We all have that past we want to say goodbye to. And when it comes knocking again, minsan nagdadalawang-isip tayo kung babalewalain ba natin ito o papasuking muli sa buhay natin, bibigyan ng isa pang chance... baka naman kasi, wrong timing lang.

Maybe this time, it's a different story.

After Kiele, came Mira. Ito yung kung tutuusin lang e panandalian pero tumatak kay Kent. She took a chunk of his heart. And it seems like she wants more of it.

I recognized her number immediately. Nag-text ito kay Kent.

Hey, it's me. Can I talk to you?

Kahit walang pangalan, alam kong si Mira 'yon. She even called him several times.

Bago pa man ako magtanong ay inunahan na ako ni Kent. Alam nyang maiinis ako dahil kinu-contact pa rin sya ni Mira. And who knows, they might be seeing each other behind my back. Paranoid pa naman ako pagdating sa mga ganung bagay. Kaya habang maaga, nililinaw ko na. Kesa mag-assume ako tapos hindi pala. E di nag-away lang kami.

"She's been sending me messages and yes, she's also been calling me. But I swear, I didn't return any. Kahit i-check mo pa yung sent items saka call logs."

I did just that. Like he said, wala nga.

"Ano na naman ang kailangan nya sa 'yo?" iritado kong tanong.

Nagkibit-balikat lang sya.

"Gamitin mo muna yung SIM ko," sabi ko sa kanya.

"Jazz... there's no need for that."

Pero dahil matigas ang ulo ko, sinimulan ko nang baklasin yung likuran ng phone nya para sa SIM card. Nakipag-agawan naman sya sa 'kin. Ang ending, bumagsak sa sahig yung phone. Oops.

He sighed.

"Sorry."

"Sorry you broke my phone or sorry that you couldn't trust me?" May tampo na naman sa boses nya. Bakit ba kasi pagdating kay Mira, nagiging sobrang paranoid ako? Sa totoo lang, wala naman akong pakialam kung may lumandi man sa kanyang ibang babae e. Napatunayan nya na naman sa 'kin na hindi sya papatol.

But Mira's a different case. They had something beautiful before. Isang kwentong nakakapanghinayang dahil hindi nagtapos ng maganda.

"Kent, iba 'to. Si Mira 'to e."

"You still don't get it, do you? Since I met you, none of them mattered anymore. Kahit si Mira pa yan, si Kiele o kung sino pa man from my past, iisa na lang sila para sa 'kin ngayon. Over. 'Cause you're here. You're the only one here. Can't you trust that, Jazz?"

That rendered me speechless. I blinked twice. "What?"

Ngumiti sya sa 'kin saka ginulo ang buhok ko. Then he bent down to pick the pieces of his phone off of the floor. "Hay... ang bago-bago nito, sira agad. Tsk tsk."

"Sorry. Papaltan ko na lang."

"There's no need. I have another phone."

He took the SIM card and headed to his bedroom. Nang makalabas sya ulit, hawak-hawak nya na yung isa nyang phone.

I looked at him apologetically. My paranoia struck again. This has to stop. This really has to stop. I can't let his past keep on haunting me. If he's already let it go, dapat ako rin.

"Look, Kent, I'm sorry if I freaked out again. It's just hard to get passed this."

"It's okay. I'm kinda used to you freaking out. It actually feels nice to have someone get scared of losing you."