I Don't Need Your Help - shizaya (completed)

Chapter 19

A/n sorry the last two chapters where short. Two long so I split them I half. This should have some of izaya's pov in it too. Also I say that his wrist is almost healed I know it's fast but for the purpose of things he's having a very speedy recovery. Enjoy!

Izaya's POV

"Do you mind telling me when you did these?" His words reminded me of what happened.

Flashback

I pick up the pocket knife and put it to my wrists.

No. To obvious.

My legs? No.

I look at my stomach. Before I can stop myself I'm cutting into my chest and stomach,

I stop myself before I get out of hand by shoving the knife into the side of my bed, getting it away from me.

Maybe I should get changed.

End of flashback

"Izaya? You okay?" I hear Shizuo ask.

"O-oh yeah just blanked for a second" I reply

" can you tell me when then?" He asks again.

" well... I did it before I got changed this morning..." I told him, after all what good would lying do.

"Okay then, don't worry we'll work on this okay?"

"Okay"

Timeskip two weeks later ( I know a long timeskip)

Shizuo POV

We had food and it was time for bed. We agreed that I would sleep with Izaya from now on to stop him from having nightmares.

I get changed into pyjamas, I walk past the bathroom where Izaya was changing to see that the door was open slightly.

I go to close it but then notice something. He doesn't have a shirt on, so I can see that he's even skinnier than before and still very underweight.

the waist band of his trousers only just fits, revealing his hips.

Izaya's looking down at his hips, and I can see...

cuts. Again seriously?! I start to get mad

I fling the door open making him jump.

"S-Shizuo??!" He shouts in shock

I walk over to him and grab his wrist, only enough to make sure he can't move, I don't want to break his other wrist.

I pin him to the wall by his wrists. Being careful not to hurt him, even though his wrist is almost healed by now I don't want to risk it breaking again.

I told him to talk to me? Does he not trust me enough? I haven't told Shinra if that's what he's scared of.

" S-Shizuo what's wrong?!" He says shaking.

I pull he waistband of his trousers lower. " Stop please.." he asks me looking off to the side.

"Why didn't you tell me about it" I ask calmly.

"I didn't want to add to your problems more, I-I'm sorry I'll tell you next t-time okay?" He says

" will there be a next time?" I ask him seriously.

He looks down.

" I don't want there to be" he says. I should start off simple.

"Izaya why did you do this?"

Izaya goes quite for like 5 minutes straight

" izaya?..."

" can I ask you a question Shizuo?" Izaya looks at me. I let go of his wrists, it doesn't look like he's gonna run away.

" what is it?" I ask

" Shizuo.........do you think I'm anorexic?"