Flesh and Blood

Lies

"Daddy!?

I shot up and looked around. My mom was sitting next to me and she flew up from her chair and hugged me. 

"Cassie. I'm so glad you're awake. Your dad stepped out for a minute. He'll be right back."

I laid back and sighed in relief. The door opened and I sat up and smiled.  My heart sank when  it wasn't who I thought it was

"There he is"

"No mom. I meant Jon"

My dad heard me and interjected

"He's not here. He hasn't been here at all. He's busy and on the road. We tried to call him, but he just didn't seem to care. You're just lucky Travis found you when he did."

I was so confused and what he was saying didn't make sense to me. What he's telling me is completely the opposite of what Jon always told me. I looked over at my mom and she just half smiled and kept her mouth shut. This wasn't what I expected. I know my dad found me and not Travis...his voice was the last I heard before everything went quiet. Did I dream that? 

"That doesn't make sense. He wouldn't abandon me like that...he said he'd always make time for me."

"He abandoned you when you were born. What makes you think he wouldn't do it now?"

My eyes welled up with tears and I looked over at my mom "But I...I don't understand..."

"He lied to you sweetheart. He's just too busy with his own life to worry about you."

"He wouldn't lie to me..." I trailed off

My mom took me in her arms and held me as I sobbed. None of this made any sense. This was completely different than everything he had been telling me this whole time. The card...the talk...everything....was it really a lie? Was he really THAT selfish and cruel? Everything that I've done. Everything that I've been through...all of the confusion and the pain...I was trying to find him...trying to find my life. I finally find him and it feels like my worse fears came true. I didn't want to be abandoned and alone. I didn't want to feel like he didn't care or love me. He was my dad....my real dad...I thought that deep down he HAD to love me. Why wouldn't he? I always thought there had to be a logic and understandable reason why they gave me up.  I should've just left it alone. I shouldn't have been curious. I shouldn't have tried. I pushed away from my mom and looked up at my dad who had a slight smirk on his face

"I want to be alone. Everyone go away"

I laid back and curled into a sniffling ball. I was suddenly reminded of what landed me here in the first place and I was starting to wish that I hadn't been found by....whoever it was that found me...

Jon's POV:

Colby and I made our way up the elevator to Cassie's room. I hadn't been here in a week and a half and I was desperate to get back. I didn't like that the White's were fighting this so much. For people who treat her like shit they were sure determined to keep her. The doors opened and I hurried out of the elevator, bumping right into Richard. 

"She wants to be left alone."

"She's awake?"

"Yep about an hour ago. Good luck by the way..."

I gave him a confused look as the elevator doors closed. What the hell is that supposed to mean? I looked back at Colby and he shrugged his shoulders. We made it to her room and I opened the door. She was curled in a ball, crying. I went over to her and put one hand on her arm and moved her hair out of her face

"Cassie, what happened? What's wrong?"

"I said I want to be alone. Go away."

She ripped her arm away, pushed me back and started to cry. 

"I'm not going to leave you here like this. Please tell me what's wrong?"

She sat up and was angry at me for some reason. I was starting to wonder what happened when she woke up. 

"Finally made time for me? Not too busy? Some where else you'd rather be?"

"Cassie what are you talking about? I'm never too busy for you."

"Whatever. I know that you don't care about me. That you lied to me. That...."

"Wait a second...where is this coming from? I've never lied to you. Have I ever given you a reason to believe that I've lied?"

"You abandoned me. You left me here. You never cared. You never wanted me and you don't want me now. You're too busy for me. You don't love me...you left me here to die with those people. I wish Travis hadn't found me. I wish I had just been left there in that room. I shouldn't have been curious. I shouldn't have tried to find you. I should've just left it alone and ignored my brothers...."

"Cassandra...wait a minute..."

This was horrible. It was breaking my heart. I didn't know where any of this was coming from. I don't even think she believed what she was saying. She was just really really sad and confused. I looked back at Colby and he looked as confused as I was feeling. 

"I don't want you here. I don't want you to hurt me anymore. I just want to be me again...I just want ....I just want to feel loved and wanted...I just want my life back. GET OUT!!"

Colby's POV:

He turned around and was trying as hard as he could to keep it together. I knew what she was saying was hurting him and I knew it was all lies. We stepped into the hall for a minute. He leaned against the wall and ran his fingers through his hair. He only did that when he was upset or stressed. 

"Jon they lied to her. You know that. You know she doesn't really believe all of that. She's confused and hurting and they took advantage of that and used the only thing they could...YOU. They're trying to make themselves look good so when it comes time for her to make a decision she'll choose them.  I'll be right back.  Hang in there."

I went back inside and walked over to her. She tried to push me away and  I grabbed her wrist. She tried to pull away but I held tighter.

"We need to talk. It's just me and you. Your dad isn't here and neither are the White's."

"I don't want to hear it"

"I'm not interested in whether or not you want to hear it. You're going to hear it. You don't honestly believe all that crap you just spewed out do you?"

She shrugged

"Cassie, I don't give two shits about the Whites. They're not very nice and they treat you like shit. Your dad has been working tirelessly to get you back. Truth is I was the one that found you. Your ex boyfriend and brother showed up at Raw looking for your dad. We pushed on the door to your room and was able to make it big enough for me to get through. I was trying to keep him away but he came in anyway. He would've given anything to trade places with you. The ambulance hadn't even left the block and he was already on the phone with a lawyer and a liaison from the agency. He's been fighting for you because he can't stand the idea that 16 years ago he handed his only daughter off to people who treat her like they do. He loves you Cassie....with all of his heart. He was here every single minute of every single day until the judge forced him to leave.  He should be on a plane with the rest of the roster to Germany, but he's here. He didn't want you to be alone or feel abandoned when you woke up. All of the things you said to him...Cassie...you owe him an apology. A HUGE apology. He's never lied to you. He's trying to be there for you whenever you  need him. Don't push him away like this. You need each other."