Flesh and Blood

"Borrowing" the Car

Sniffling "Travis why did he do it?  Why did he sign the papers??"

"Why do you think Cassie? You made this big deal about wanting to be with your dad. You live there 10 months and come running back without even having a good reason. If you wanted mom so badly you should've just called her. You left a lot behind....just like you left a lot behind here. You're spoiled and selfish and you think of only yourself. You got yourself into this mess Cassie."

"He hates me doesn't he...I know he hates me..."

"I doubt it very much Cassie, but IF he does....you did it to yourself. I'm sorry if this all sounds mean, but you need to think about other people before you go making life changing decisions that affect the people around you."

We sat on the couch watching Monday night Raw together. It was the last one of the year before Christmas and I remembered all of the things my dad said we were going to do together because he had so much time off. The last match of the night was my dad against Colby. They had been feuding with each other for a while. It was all this big build up to the Royal Rumble. 

"So I think after the last Raw in Des Moines we should spend a little time with Colby and his family...."

We watched the last of Raw and then went to bed. I packed an overnight bag and snuck into Travis's room when I knew he was asleep and took the keys to his car. I know I shouldn't, but I really felt like I needed to talk to my dad and Tristan in person. It was killing me thinking they hated me. l quietly left the house and took Travis's car and got on I-74 to Davenport, IA. I drove nearly 5 hours to get there. It was just a little after 5am when I arrived. I sat in the car and stared at the house for a long time. I was scared and I was starting to realize that I didn't know what I would do if they both said they hated me. A light came on in one of the rooms and I knew that someone...probably Colby....was awake. I got out of the car and started walking up to the front door. My heart was pounding and my palms were sweating. I lifted my hand to politely knock when the door opened

"Cassie?"

"Hi Colby."

He stepped outside and closed the door "What are you doing here?"

"Um...is my dad here?"

"Yes, but I don't think it's a good idea for you to be here. Haven't you done enough to your dad and Tristan??"

I looked down and shrugged my shoulders and nodded.  I turned and started walking back to the car. I should've known better than to come out here. He grabbed my arm and stopped me. I looked back at him and he half smiled

"Cassie, you just can't come walking in and out of people's lives all of the time. Your dad loves you Cassie he's just really really hurt. And as for Tristan he's hurt too. I think it's just better you go back to Indiana"

Tears started to fall and I nodded

"I'm not trying to hurt your feelings. I'm trying to protect my friend and my son from being hurt all of the time."

"I just...never mind...I already know"

I heard him sigh loudly and he pulled me back towards him and ushered me into the house. He sat me down at the kitchen table and disappeared for a minute. I picked at my nail polish and heard footsteps. I looked up and my dad was standing in the door way half asleep and scratching his head. 

"Cassie...go home."

"Daddy please. I'm sorry."

"It's too late for I'm sorry. You should've thought about that before doing what you did. Once again you made a snap decision without thinking first. That's all I asked from you Cassie...THINK before you speak or act and you didn't and look at where it got us??"