Flesh and Blood

3 Months Later

"Come on Caleb not right now"

I giggled as I pushed him away from kissing my neck. It didn't take long for the old me to come back. My dad was never here and when he was home he was always out on the strip with his friends. The first month and a half was great. I was having so much fun. He let me decorate my room however I wanted. He taught me how to drive and bought me a car. He spent so much time with me and I was so happy. Then he started to change. I didn't know if this was normal Jon or something that he just randomly started doing. He would come home, barely say two words to me, shower and then leave for the night. 

"You're such a square Cassie."

"Am not!  If I was such a square would I be sitting in the middle of my bedroom drinking Vodka and Gin with you?  Which reminds me we should go easy on this stuff cuz I can't replace the ENTIRE bottle with water...he'd figure it out for sure."

He leaned forward and kissed me. He started trying to push his limits with me again and I had to push him away again. I met Caleb in detention. Yep...been here three months and have already managed to get detention at least once a week. It was mainly for tardies, but they aren't always my fault. Actually they're my dad's fault.  We finished drinking and went out to the kitchen and refilled the bottles with tap water and put them back in my dad's liquor closet. 

"Cassie come on...please"

I rolled my eyes "Stop begging. I don't want to. Plus my dad is coming home tonight and I thought maybe we could convince him to have dinner with us. I want him to meet you and at least approve of you." 

"Want to?"

He pulled out a baggie with little blue pills in them. I was no stranger to these things, but I just didn't want to. I was really really hoping that tonight my dad would actually spend some time with me and I wanted to be sober. I heard the front door close and his bag drop on the floor. Caleb shoved the bag back in his pocket and followed me out to the living room. I was grinning from ear to ear as I excitedly skipped out of the room 

"Hi daddy"

"Hey kiddo"

He walked right by me into the kitchen without even really acknowledging my presence. I looked over at Caleb and sighed. 

"Watch...he won't pay attention to a thing I'm saying....watch I can say anything right now and it wouldn't matter cuz he's not listening."

We followed him into the kitchen. I leaned on the bar and watched him down a beer in no time. 

"Dad. So I want to know if it's OK if I go to a party on the strip with Caleb and some of my friends"

If he was paying attention he'd say no. He didn't like me going down to the strip alone and at night. I knew it and I had no intention of going down there I just wanted to see what he'd say

"Yeah that's fine Cassie...whatever...just be home by curfew. I'm going out tonight. I'm going to shower and head out."

"K. So then it's fine if I take the expensive scotch and drink it?"

"Yeah fine honey whatever..."

I turned to Caleb and smirked "See. Not listening. I could be dying right now and he'd never know."

We went back into my room and I sat on the floor bummed out. Caleb pulled the baggie from his pocket and dangled it in front of me. I looked up at it and shook my head. 

"You've probably never done something like this in your life"

"Actually I've done worse.  I just don't know where they came from so I don't know what you're trying to give me."

"It's E...what more do you want to know? You want to roll with me or not?"

He popped one in his mouth and handed the bag to me. I looked back at my door and sighed. I heard the front door close so I took one and popped it in my mouth. It wasn't long before I was high as a kite and willing to do whatever Caleb wanted. He pulled me to him and started kissing me. Seth was the last person I had done this with and that was a while ago. I had been so good and able to keep myself in check, but when I was like this I'd do just about anything.

The front door slammed closed and something fall on the floor. My eyes flew open and I had a pounding headache and I was sleeping naked on Caleb.  "Shit"  I got up and got dressed. Caleb woke up and got dressed. There was more commotion in the kitchen and I sighed. I was horribly embarrassed. This was becoming all too common and I hated that Caleb was always stuck in the middle of this. 

"Your dad?"

"Yeah. Help me please."

We went into the kitchen to find my dad drunk off his ass, leaning against the counter drinking a beer. I was so frustrated. So angry. So hurt. I was tired of this. It was happening too much....almost every night that he was home. And when he wasn't drinking and/or drunk like this he was bringing random women home and I'd have to put in my ear phones to drown them out. I looked up at him trying desperately to hold back the tears. He finished his beer and gave me a goofy smile. I looked back at Caleb and motioned for him to come over. He put my dad's arm around his shoulder and I put his other arm around me and we started walking him to the bedroom. He looked over at me and kissed my cheek. He reeked of booze

"I love you Savannah"

I rolled my eyes and let go as Caleb helped him the rest of the way. I leaned against the wall and put my face in my hands and cried. What was happening??  Why was he doing this??  I felt Caleb pull my hands away from my face and pull me to him. 

"Who is Savannah?"

"My mother. She's dead"

"I'll stay with you tonight if you want."

I sighed "I'm sorry Caleb...I'm sorry this keeps happening while you're here. I'm so embarrassed."

"It's fine Cassie. Do you want me to stay?"

I nodded and we went down the hall to my room and laid down. I looked at the clock and saw that it was nearly 4 am. Guess I wasn't going to school tomorrow after all