The smile that was ignored (KIMTAEHYUNGXBTS) (Completed)

Chapter 9

Kim Taehyung p.o.v
Fear.That was what I'm feeling right now. I was sitting on the bathroom floor don't really care about how dirty it is.

I was having intense headache this morning that followed by me vomiting. I keep vomiting when Seojin hyung came and asked If I'm okay.

"Are you okay, Tae?" He spoke softly showing his concern.He quickly go to me and pat my back while I'm vomiting.

"I don't know hyung. I just have this headache and next thing I know I'm vomiting." I said while looking at him with a teary eyes. Do I really will die?

"Its fine Tae. Lets go to the kitchen we can discuss it there." He spoke with a really comforting voice.
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[in the dining room]

"Whats wrong with me hyung? Do my condition worsen?" I spoke carefully afraid of the answer.

"You know Tae, You are the strongest person I have ever met." He said looking straight into my eyes.

"What do you mean hyung? I mean, I was really weak. You see how I have my breakdown. I can't even face the members right now because I'm afraid." I asked with my true feeling in it. I don't know what he see in me to say that I'm strong.

"Just because you are crying does not mean you are weak Tae. The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about. I don't know what you have been through but I know you have been through a lot of things. but you just hide it with your smile. I know Tae." He said with a seriousness in it. The words he just said immediately go to my heart.

"I believe you will survive Tae." He spoke firmly that really touch my heart. Why do I keep crying?!

"Hyung, why are you like this? You should just be a writer. About my treatment what should I do?" I said jokingly and try to moved the topic. Its a success. Seojin hyung chuckle and start talking about my treatment.

"Oh, your treatment. You will have the radiotherapy. It will kill the cancer cell. But it was not 100% will work and you will have the side effect when you are in treatment." He said with his doctor mode on.

"What is it hyung?" I will do this treatment even if it not 100% will work. Its not wrong to try.

"Your body will be weak. You will get the symptoms more frequently. Finally, your hair, you will lose a little bit of your hair and it will not be the same even after the treatment. Will you do this treatment?" He explained to me.

Honestly, I'm afraid for the treatment. I know after the treatment it will be different. But my priority is to survive and get well from this brain tumor(its the same thing with brain cancer)

I nodded my head with a determination. He just smile at me and tell me he will call me for the treatment schedule.

Now, its time to go back to the members. Did they worried? Are they still mad at me?

Its fine, I hope. I will start the Seojin hyung's advice. Answer with smile. Be less annoying.
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[Time skip]
We arrived in front of the building and enter it together. I don't know why Seojin hyung want to followed me. He can just send me infront of the building and left. But he just decided to followed me.

I just walk silently behind Seojin hyung. I was panic, to meet the members. Noticing this, Seojin hyung pat my shoulder and tell me everything is going to be okay.

Arrived in front of the practice room, Seojin hyung said he need to go to the toilet. I was left alone infront of the door that separate me from the members. I can hear the song coming from inside.

I knocked slowly and opened the door. All of the members stop all their move and look at me. With a confuse face at first but quickly change to annoyed.

"Why are you here?" Suga hyung said coldly.

I just smile. Like what Seojin hyung said. Their face are more annoyed now. I decided that I need to sit and I slowly walk to the corner of the room and sit there waiting for them to start the practice.

I guess they will just ignored me again. Should I appologize?
That thought came and out from my mind. Maybe I should do it. Talking for the last time.

"I'm sorry. Its my fault." I spoke slowly but loud enough for the members to hear it. They just look at me for a while and continue what they do before.

"It is your fault. Its good that you know." Jin hyung said not looking at me at all. The other members just nodded.

The feel came again. Its felt like the words don't hurt me, but the person who said them did. I deserve this hurt feeling. Relax Tae.

I just continue to look at the floor until the door was opened by Seojin hyung. My face light up.

"Who are you?" Namjoon hyung said.

I walked to Seojin hyung to say that don't tell the members about my tumor. But I was to late.

"I'm Kim Taehyung's doctor." He said staring into the members.The members quickly look at me with a weird faces.

Well, luckily he just said about he is my doctor. But the problem  is the members must be curious why I need a doctor. I just hope Seojin hyung can help with the reasons later.

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Author note
Another chapter, I'm sorry if this chapter was boring.. I'm really sorry.

Thanks for your time🙇🙇 Feel free to correct my mistake.vote and comment if this book worth it.

Edited: Okay, there are soo many typos in it.. I'm sorry I was really sleepy yesterday and honestly, I don't even remember what I write.. Sorry for that..