The smile that was ignored (KIMTAEHYUNGXBTS) (Completed)

Chapter 18(Kim Taehyung's past)

Kim Taehyung (17 years old)

I looked at the huge mansion in front of me. I would like to call it my home but then its not. Honestly, I can't call it my home. Its my House but not my home. A house is made of bricks and beams, but a home is made with hopes and dreams. I can't feel it. Hopes and Dreams, I don't even know how its feel.

Yes, I have a very successful lawyer as a parents. A really great mom and dad to be my example. But If they barely at home what can be an example?

People always said, I have a really awesome family because I have a big house. What they don't know are the fact that Its not how big the house is, Its how happy the home is. I guess they only saw what I've got that they forget to see how I really felt.

I sighed and walk into the mansion to be greet with my maids. I just nodded as a greeting. As expected my parents were not in the house.

I'm the youngest son actually. I have one brother and one sister. Yup, we are in the same family but you know what? They are more loved. Since I was young I used to be the one who are always behind them.

That one son who always saw their siblings got a present when their birthday come. But received nothing when his birthday. Not even a wish. That is how my life have been.

At first I don't know why. When I was 15, I have enough and I asked them why.

"You still don't know? Look at your brother, He won many awards for his cleverness. Look at your sister, She is a gorgeous model. Now, Look at you! You are the worst son that I ever want. You are stupid and you don't know anything! You are lucky I still take care of you. Go to your room and study. Be more like your brother!"

That was what my dad said. I remember every details of it. My mom who was beside him just glared at me. Just by the look of it, They hate me.

Since that, I rarely said something at that house. After I came back from school, I go Straight away to my room. When they eat dinners as the whole family, they don't even called me. I guess I'm not good enough to be their family.

You must be thinking, if my parents don't like me maybe my siblings like me. But that is a big no. They just the same. They called me stupid whenever I walked in front of them.

After a long time heard that word, I really considered myself stupid. I'm always slow at catching up something new. I know that. I'm not good at anything that my parents want me to be.

But I'm sure I'm really good at one thing. Singing. I love singing. Its make me forget the reality that I live. I keep it as a secret because, I'm sure they will laugh at me.

Today, I ate my dinner alone just like another day. My parents came back earlier today and go out again with my brother and sister. I heard from the maids that they want to celebrate my brother's birthday.

Its a lie if I said I don't felt anything. I'm used to it. Its weird how I'm still hurt even when I'm used to it.

If you wondering how I still survive well, its all because I love them. Yeah, They hate me but they still my family. The only people that I got.

I went to sleep with a feel that something big will happened. I don't know what. I'm right after all.
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I wake up with a shout from my sister.

"Yah! Stupid, why you don't clean my room?! I told you before we go out yesterday." She said. Did I mentioned my siblings always told me to clean their room? I guess I don't. Now you know.

They always told me to clean their room. I don't even know why. I mean we have 18 maids why they want me to do it? My mom asked them once and they said I'm the one who good at it. You know what my mom do? She just agree with it and told me to do what ever they want me to do.

Wait! How can I forget she want me to clean her room yesterday! Its must slip from my mind. I'm so stupid!

"I'm sorry, noona. I forget." I said not looking at her face. Suddenly I felt a sharp pain that came from my left cheek. Did she just slap me?

I looked at her with a wide eyes. I don't know why but I can't hold my anger and stand up immediately.

" Why did you slap me?" I asked while pushing her shoulder slightly. Thats make  her shocked because I never showed my anger. Every time they said things that hurt me, I will just ignored it. This is the first time I show it. Its not good by the way.

"Mom!!" She called my mom. I was in panic. I know if she said something my mom will immediately believe her.

"No,no I'm sorry." I said quickly but I was too late. My mom already here in my room and go straight to my sister that standing there with a teary eyes.

"What are you doing with my daughter?!" My mom asked me with an angry voice.

"I don't do anything." I said defending myself.

"He pushed me mom. I almost fell over. He mad because I asked him why he don't clean my room." She said and sobbing. I can't believe it. I never felt this hurt before. Is this how it felt to be betrayed?

"What?! How dare you hurt my daughter?! You go out from this house. You are worthless! We don't need you here! You just waste your father's money. Go! Right now!" She shouted at my face.

"No, I'm sorry mom. Its my fault please don't do that." I said sobbing. I felt so hopeless.

"I'm not your mother! Just go!" She said and left with my sister. Before they out from my room I can see my sister looked back at me and smirk. I just continue to sobbing and decided I need to get out from this house.

I don't pack anything beside my wallet. I saved my own money by work at the cafe on the weekend but I stop a week before because I need to focus on my study. I have a plenty money but enough for me to buy something to eat. If you wondering how  can I work when my parents was rich? Well they give me not enough money to even buy my own clothes.

I walked out from the mansion and go away from it.

After a few days, my money was decreased. I don't find shop that want me to work there. That is when I met Bang Sihyuk pdnim. I was singing at the park. I thought I was alone but then he suddenly appeared out of nowhere and offer me to be an Idol. I agree and I met with the most amazing people. I felt loved for the first time.

But what happened when I was in that house, change me. I don't want to show my feeling. The last time I showed it, it doesn't go really well. Since that I promised myself to keep smiling, hiding all my feeling.
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