'and He will continue to smile no matter how hurt He is'
XKim taehyung centric fanficx
This is not a boyxboy fanfiction.Its about their friendship..Please try to read it..It will get better..
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Sorry, I'm late. Sorry for the bad chapter ahead 🙁🙁
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Min Yoongi pov.
I believe all of this is our fault. This is what we deserve. When Tae is healthy we ignore him saying he is annoying but when Tae is not waking up guess what? Yes, we miss him. So much!
'I don't know why I felt like this. I was the second that know about all of this but I still can't accept it. Why?! Why I can't accept it?
The fact that maybe we can't meet him again break my heart apart.
Its weird, I mean life. When Tae show his smile every second before, I still remember how annoyed I am. I hate it. But now, look, I will do anything to see his smile again.
I look around to see an empty park the place where I ran from my problems. I walked to the bench that was there.
Remember the notebook? I have it. The notebook that Tae gave. I hold it from when Tae was 'sleeping'. I opened it and shocked to see the first page. Yeah, I never open it cause I'm afraid.
"Use it to express your feeling^^" that was what is written in the first page. Its Tae's writing. I trace the words. I pull out my pen. I always bring my pen everywhere. Don't ask me why.
Min Yoongi 28 May 2017,
I want to look strong but I'm not strong anymore. Will this guilty feeling stay, haunting me?
Thats enough to explain how I felt. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Jung Hoseok pov.
After what Yoongi said, I realize even the person that never give up can lose a hope. He never like that before. Even when we were almost disband.He never like that.
Never lose hope on us. I know because at that time I can hear every night, he play the piano. Wrote a new song in hope to use it for the next comeback that we were not really sure. Its give me hope too.
Because of that I really respect him. He never show his emotion, but I know inside of him just full with it. What Tae said is right. Every word. I look at the bracelet that Tae gave.
'hope' that is what on it. At the back of it,filled with words that will make my eyes teary everytime. 'our hope,Jung Hoseok'
Can I be their hope? Can I? I look around to see all the members looking sad and depressed.
"Guys, don't make that face. You know Tae is still here with us. Look at him. He is fighting for us. Lets not be so depressed. Its not what he want us to be,right? He want us to be happy. Let have some hope~" I said,making all the members look at me for a while.
"You are right." Jin hyung said with a weak smile. With that all the members started to nod their heads and give me a smile. Not that cheerful smile but its enough to cheer up the room a little bit.
"Indeed, Our hope." Jimin said and hugged me. He look so cute right now. I patted his hair messing his hair a little bit that make he frown.
"Ah, Hyungggg! My hair.." He said whining. All the members laughed at his face. His face is so funny! I look around and one thought came into minds. 'Tae, I'm doing great right?'
I have one more thing to do. Suga hyung. I should find him.
"I will find Yoongi hyung." I said with determination that show on my eyes. I guess that is what make the members trust me to go. They look at me with that look again. That 'full of hope' look.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ After walking around to find Yoongi hyung, I almost give up until I saw this dark park with only a few light.
Its scary. I don't want to go there but I have this strong feeling that he is there. Alone. With that in mind I push myself to go there.
I walked slowly into the park. "Yoongi hyung?" I asked slowly. I stop to hear the respond. There is no respond. He is not here. When I was about to go back, suddenly, I can sense something on my right.
I turn to the right and found this one presence sitting, writing something on his book. Just from the back, I can see he is Yoongi hyung.
"Yoongi hyung." I said loud enough for him to hear it. He immediately look back and saw me standing here. He look at me for a while and turn back to the front, ignoring me.
I walked to him and sit beside him. I looked at his hand. There it is. The notebook that Tae gave.
"Hyung, you know what? Sometime I even wonder why mistake exist? Then, I realize maybe from the mistakes we learn. If that the reason, why this guilty feeling exist? Some people can't run from that guilty that they forget to learn from the mistake. They are too consume in that feeling that they are afraid to look at the mistake again to learn from it.
But hyung, maybe this guilty feeling is to test us. How strong we are to fight it. Its not easy to look back at our own mistake and learn from it. Maybe it exist to make us stronger. This is what I believe.
I trust you hyung. You are a strong person. Please hyung. Don't be too consume with the guilty feeling. There is still a hope. You know Tae will never leave us without a fight right? We should fight too hyung. We don't want when Tae wake up, he see how bad we look. Show me, hyung. Show me that you can fight that guilty feeling." I gave a long speech. I don't know if I make any sense or not but I just expressed what I need to.
I don't know if he heard me though, cause he keep staring ahead.
"Maybe you are right, hoseok-ah. Maybe you are right." Thats what he said before he leave me walking to who know where.
I immediately run to follow him.
"Hyung! Don't leave me here. Its scary T^T" It is scary! Its so dark and empty. Beside that I'm happy to hear yoongi hyung's laugh. Well, there is still a hope.
I just come back now!!! Hahahah.. I have exam and it still going on T^T Its hard..huhuhu
I'm kind of busy with my family matter. My father is sick. He is in hospital right now T~T He just come back home yesterday. If you are wondering where did he go before, remember when I said my parents were out of country for a month? Yeah, they just come back yesterday, after a month.. But he have a fever so I still can't spend my time with them😥
Btw sorry for the really bad chapter and you may don't understand what I wrote🙏🏻🙏🏻 thanks for waiting. Please remind me sometime to update. When I'm busy I can forget other things easily.. So please remind me if I'm not updating~
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