The smile that was ignored (KIMTAEHYUNGXBTS) (Completed)

Chapter 10

Kim Taehyung p.o.v
"I'm Kim Taehyung's doctor." Seojin hyung said while glaring at the members. The members look at me though with a weird face.

At that moment, I'm kind of panic, because obviously the members will be curious at the fact that I need a doctor. What should I say?

"Why did he need a doctor?" Namjoon hyung asked not even bothered by Seojin hyung's glare.

"I don't have the right to say anything. But its not like you care. Before I go, I just want you to know, Not all scars show, Not all wounds heal, Sometimes you can't always see the pain someones feel because of you. People will forget what you said. People will forget what you did. But you know what? People will never forget how you made them feel. Don't regret it later." After finishing a long speech he look at me and hug me.

"I will call you for more detail about the treatment, okay?" he whispered so that the other members can't hear it. I just nodded my head.

With a goodbye Seojin hyung went back to hospital. I just awkwardly standing infront of the door.

"What did he mean? You!" Hoseok hyung said while pointing his finger to my face.

"What did you tell him? You lied about us and make yourself as a victim? You must be talking bad about us! " He said making an assumption.

"No, I'm not hyung. Trust me." I said with a shocked face. Why did they said like that?
I would never said bad things about them.

"Then why he glaring at us? Said like we are the one who hurt you?!" Namjoon hyung said with a red face that filled with anger.

Ouch, my head. My head started to hurt. But its not like this morning. Its just a little bit, but enough to make me shut my eyes.

I tried to stay calm, thinking  that maybe it can lessen my pain. The members start to shouting the word that I can't catch.

"What happened here?!Taehyung? I want to see you for a while." Someone said making my eyes opened.

Its Bang Sihyuk pdnim. He was the one that lead us for all this time. I walk slowly while looking at the floor. Afraid to see the member's face that maybe filled with their anger.

I just  followed Bang pdnim to his office.My pain started to lessen. I felt better now.

After Bang pdnim shut the door, without a word he just hugged me tightly. It make me froze for a second but quickly hugged him back.

After a while, I just realized he was crying. I can hear his sobbed from my right ear because of our position.

Why is he crying?! What is happening here?

"I heard about it Tae. A-about your T-tumor. I'm sorry Taehyung that I don't know about it. That I can't do anything to help you." He spoke while broking  our hug. He just stared at me with his red eyes.

"Its fine, Bang pd nim. How did you know?" I said while trying to sound like I'm okay. Honestly, I just want to cry right there. But you know what, I have come to realize, nothing will change even when I'm crying. I will stand again and Try my best to survive.

"Dr. Seojin just told me. He also talk about your treatment. You know Tae I will give you a holiday whenever you want. I just want you to know, I believe in you. I believe you will survive." He said with determination.
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[time skip]
We are back at our dorm. After the heartwarming discussion with Bang pd nim. He send me to the practice room and tell us to practice while watching us. Without him knowing, he just help me to practice. If he was not there, they will ignored me and don't want to practice with me.

I just sitting here with my note book. I decided to wrote my wish and maybe I can fullfill it before I was to weak to do it.

First of all, I want to go on vacation with my members. I want to spent almost all my time with them if that posible. I hope they don't ignore me though.

Second, Go on vacation with Seojin hyung who help me and willing to take my hand when I need someone. He said he will tried to help me with the list.

Thirdly, I want to meet my family and settle all of our problems. I don't want my relationship with my family still like this.

I continue to list the things that I want to do before I died. It does not mean I give up. I just want to enjoy my live if anything happened.

The members doesn't seemed to acknowledged my presence so I just walk downstairs to see what are they doing.

I regret it. Why I walk downstairs again? They were having fun with each other's companies. They look like a perfect family, without me.

I quickly returned to my room. I was in this room alone and dying. My tears started to falling. I quickly wiped my tears and tried to sleep.
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[3.00 a.m]
I was awake like always with the same dream. What's different was the fact that I have this urge to vomit when I awake.

I run to the bathroom and immediately throw up when I saw the toilet bowl.

After I felt better, I stand up and look at myself in front of the mirror.

A year ago everything was different. I don't have this tumor, My members still close to me, always by my side.

Now, that I look back, I realize that a year can do alot to a person.

I just can't think really clear. But What I know I was in our maknae room. I don't know why I was there but I just there.

I just make a move to go back to my room. But something was forcing me to stay there. I don't know what. I look at our maknae that I love so much like my own brother.

He was in a deep sleep, I guess.
He can't hear anything, right?

"Kookie, are you asleep?" I ask slowly. I don't know why I talk to them. I just need someone to talk to. I don't want to disturb Seojin hyung.

When I'm sure he can't hear me I just sit beside his bed.
[continue in another chapter that will come out in an hour]
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Author note.
Sorry for stopping there..It just to long. Its a boring chapter again right? Sorry.

Thanks for your time🙇🙇I really appreciate it!Feel free to correct my mistakes.

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Oh, next chapter(1 hour after I published this) will have the Taehyung's list at the end of the chapter! Don't forget...