forever fades away

chapter 55

“Finn come on and be serious!” Rachel scolded as Finn laid on the bed over the clothes she was preparing to pack for him. 

“I can’t! You’re wearing that skirt and you keep bending over. How the hell can I be serious?!” He did have a good point, but Rachel was not giving in. 

“Finn, it’s not like you haven’t seen that before,” Rachel rolled her eyes and began rummaging through his closet. 

“True, but it’s been a long time, Rachel. A really long time, like years and years and…” Finn sighed dramatically and then laughed when he saw her whip her head around at him. 

“That’s not what I meant, Finn. I meant that you’ve seen girls naked before and,” Rachel started but Finn sat up on the bed. He knew this conversation would come up soon enough. 

“And?” Finn queried lightly. Rachel just blushed, she didn’t want to talk about his other ‘women’ but now that the subject was brought up, she wondered… 

“And,” she drawled, “You aren’t hard up. That’s all I’m saying.” Rachel was in full-embarrassed mode. So much so that she got down on her knees in his closet and began counting his sneakers. 

“Do you really need this many sneakers? I mean seriously, is it possible for you to…” 

“Rachel?” 

“Yeah?” Rachel asked hesitantly. 

“Come here,” Finn called out for her and saw her shoulders sag, before she stood up. 

“I’m here.” Rachel said standing at the foot of the bed, that’s when she noticed that he cleared off the bed completely. 

“No, here,” Finn patted the side of the bed next to him, and watched as she crawled over next to him. 

“What?” she asked softly. 

“I have to tell you something,” he started and watched as she tensed up. She wasn’t ready to hear the number he was sure to give her. She swallowed thickly before nodding. 

“I’m not going to say that I was completely innocent while we were apart, but I want you to know that I never slept with anyone other than you.” Rachel was sulking, how could she think he would have…wait? Did he say what she thought he said? Rachel turned her hopeful eyes towards him. 

“Really?” Finn just nodded, he hoped she wasn’t too upset with him. 

“Finn, look at me.” Rachel tilted his chin towards her. His unsure eyes met her tearful ones. 

“I waited for you, too.” Rachel smiled and slowly crawled into his lap. She rested her forehead against his and he quickly wrapped his arms around her. 

“Why did you wait?” she asked softly. 

Finn looked into her eyes and told her the truth. “I hoped that we’d have this moment and I didn’t want to let you down again. You are the only one I’ve ever loved…the only one I’ll ever love.” Finn leaned in and drew her in for a long, deep kiss. 

He ran his hands up under her shirt and came into contact with her warm, soft skin. Their tongues dueling and their bodies heating up as the moments passed. He wanted to be with her, but he would never rush her. 

She wanted to be with him, but was terrified that she wouldn’t live up to the expectation. Then she thought, they were both obviously out of practice and that meant they would get to explore one another’s bodies for the first time in years. She would get to touch him the way no one else had. They would be together with no limitations, and she couldn’t wait.