Smile (Kris Bryant)

Chapter Thirty Three| Blessed

Alexandria

"What about this" I ask Kris while pointing to a crib. We were trying to figure out what to do for the babies room and it was harder than we initially thought. We both didn't really care what we got whichever way, we just wanted it to be done.

"I like it" he nods.

"You've said that about the last 5 cribs" I giggle and he laughs along.

"I don't know which one to choose. We don't even have a name for the kid" he defends. He did have a point.

"Okay then, what did you have in mind" I ask and he taps his chin. His eyes light up as he gets really excited. "We're not naming him Wrigley. That can be his middle name, but not his first name" I state he pouts.

"I hate when you read my mind like that" he mumbles and I laugh. We look through some names online and none of them stick out.

"What about Bennett" I ask and he stops scrolling through the thousands of names. He turns to me with a bright smile and I couldn't help but smile back.

"Bennett. That's beautiful. What does it mean" he asks.

"It means blessed. And I was blessed enough to have the opportunity to love another kid and hopefully keep him. So I think Bennett works wonderfully" I shrug.

"It's a beautiful name. Bennett Wrigley Bryant" he says and my heart skips.

"It's perfect" I admit.

After finding a name picking stuff out was much easier, we find a crib and a dresser and a play pen among other things. His room would be navy blue and tan and it's cub themed. I couldn't fight Kris too much on that one because I thought it was adorable. I know I'm gonna be a momma bear so it worked out fine.

But since it was New Year's Eve all I could do was order the stuff because no one was open for the next few days.

Instead of going out we decided to stay in and watch the ball drop on tv and relax. He had all his snacks I gave him for Christmas laying on the table ready for us to eat. He picks up a snickers bar and I grab a bag of sour patch kids. I lay my head in his lap as we watch the people sing at time square. We sing along because that's what we do when we're alone together and I finally have time to recap what all has happened this year.

I was blessed enough to have Kris come into my life. He was a blessing sent to me from god himself. I nearly got beat to death in order to have him, but I found the one thing I needed to get out of that situation and it was him. I'm lucky enough that Kris has been nothing but great to me. Never pushed me or made me feel uncomfortable in abby way. He always says the right things at the right time and I would be stupid not to appreciate that. Leaving my life behind was hard. That life was nothing but terrible but it was all I knew. It was scary and I hate that it had to come to that. But it did, and as bad it sounds I'm glad Spencer pulled the final string. I'm happy all of that unraveled my ball of yarn because Kris picked me up and knitted this life that I am happy to live.

After losing so much I finally won at something. I won a house I can call a home. I won a boyfriend I could call my own. And I won a child I will have and will love more than life itself.

"What are you thinking about" he finally asks and I look up at him.

"Where I'm at right now. How different I am than when I started the New Years this year" I say.

"I hope it's all good things" he admits.

"They're great things and they're all thanks to you" I insist.

"I know you think that, but it's all you. I suggested you got help, you went out and got it. You were able to change and you got better. You overcame so much to be this amazingly beautiful woman before me. Things that I could never be able to go through. You learned to love again after having your heart broken. You learned how to care for a child after losing one. You let people in and no matter how scared you were you never said no. You wanted to get better and you did. I am just happy to be able to watch you grow as you have these past few months. You're so important to me, it didn't matter what you were to me. As long as you were happy and I was part of the reason why, that's all I ever wanted" he claims. I feel the tears come up but sniffle them away.

"You are the greatest boyfriend ever, you know that right" I ask.

"I try to be. Just for you" he smiles. I pull him down and into a kiss and he smiles.

"Your lips taste like sour patch kids" he laughs and I roll my eyes. Looks like I'm raising two children.

We continue to listen to the music and wait for it to be the new year. I smile big when my favorite artists show up. Kris knows how much I love them and pulls me off the couch. He wraps my arms around my neck before pulling me as close as he could with my stomach between us.

"Tell me am I going crazy? (Uh huh)
Tell me have I lost my mind? (Yeah)
Am I just afraid of lovin'? (Uh huh)
Or am I not the lovin' kind? (Yeah)
Kissin' in the moonlight
Movies on a late night
Gettin' old
(Uh huh)
I've been there, done that
Supposed to be hot
But it's just cold
(Yeah)
Somebody wake up my heart
Light me up
Set fire to my soul, yeah (Uh huh)
'Cause' I can't do it anymore (Yeah)."

He spins me around before pulling me into his chest again. He quickly presses his lips to my nose before making me laugh. He moves a stray hair out of my face as it gets tucked behind my ear. He softly sings along as we sway back and fourth.

"Gimme that can't sleep love
(Gimme that can't sleep)
I want that can't sleep love
(Gimme that can't sleep)
The kind I dream about all day
The kind that keeps me up all night
Gimme that can't sleep love
(Yeah)
Maybe I'm too picky, honey (Uh huh)
But I'm not in the world you're in (hah, hah, hah)
I'm not in it for the money, ooh
I'm your looking for the real thing
(Yeah)"

I look up into his icy blue eyes and smile. Those things saw in me what people missed. What people didn't see in me for years. Those eyes that reflect everything good in me. That always thought I was beautiful and always said the right thing. They were very special eyes. Not just because they're beautiful, but because they found the beauty in everything. And every time I look into them I see everything I've ever dreamed of and more. And I feel like all those dreams are going to come true. Because in his eyes they are.

"Oh, I'm tired of dreaming I'm no one (I'm tired)
I need some body next to mine (I, I'm tired, yeah)
'Cause I'm dyin' to give it to someone (give it to someone)
Because I can't do it anymore
Gimme that can't sleep love
(Gimme that can't sleep)
I want that can't sleep love
(Gimme that can't sleep)
The kind I dream about all day (about all day)
The kind that keeps me up all night (keeps me up all night)
Gimme that can't sleep love
(Yeah)"

The clock strikes midnight and I can hear fireworks from the neighbors. Kris puts his lips on mine and 2016 was already off to a great start.