harder to breathe | seulmin √

realization

Harder To Breathe (xii)

It's another normal day for Seulgi. Normal means usual which is, Seulgi in the practice room dancing their latest choreography, sweating like a mad man.

"You're so early Seulgi'ssi." Seungwan said after opening the door and finding Seulgi swaying her hips left and right.

Seulgi just smile at Seungwan and continue to dance her body. Seungwan also followed after her.

"Where are the others?" Seulgi asks while looking at the mirror.

"Dorm." Seungwan simply said and sat across Seulgi. 

She is wondering why Seungwan is there when she can stay at the dorm just like the other members did but, Seulgi neglected asking more.

After hours of dancing and singing, Seulgi and Seungwan decided to have a break.

Joohyun, Sooyoung and Yerim are still not in the dance practice room, probably sleeping at the center of their bed. Seulgi's mind said.

They are not required to practice this day but Seulgi is unstoppable. She just wants to get away from things that running to her mind.

It's the only thing that can calm her. Dancing.

"Wendy'ssi." Seulgi suddenly called Seungwan's name out of nowhere. After their break, the two of them were now focused on their individual part and practicing in different corners of the room. 

"Hmm?" Seungwan hummed while drinking her water. Intrigued with the seriousness of Seulgi's voice. 

Seulgi's stare to Seungwan, thinking if she will tell her other member what happened between her and Joohyun. About what their Leader said.

She wants to know what Seungwan will say but then Seulgi stopped herself for saying another word. Seungwan might tell her the same thing like Joohyun did, it's the best answer anyway.

Don't attach yourself to an Idol.

All in all it was actually like this, stay away from Jimin but Seulgi knows to herself that she was staying away every time they were in the same place.

Seulgi actually wanted to argue with Joohyun about that.

Jimin is the one who needs to stay away from her.

Because if the man continues what he's doing? Seulgi might actually think that he has something for her and she has the same thing. Seulgi actually don't know what it is called.

Jimin would never risk his fame just to see her and apologise right?

One time Seulgi was annoyed then now the annoyance was gone. Maybe Jimin saying he is sorry helped to ease her higher bad temper towards him.

Seulgi's heart doesn't lie either and her breathe does not help at all. Is it a bad thing?

The company didn't say that they were not allowed to have feelings or any sort of emotion or being friends with other people.

What SM actually said was, they can't be serious when it comes to romantic relationships matter because it will not last long with the line of their work.

Seulgi is sure she's not having a romantic feelings toward Park Jimin and maybe she was just overwhelmed by the said Idol.

Because he's actually giving her the attention.

No one actually have the guts to talk to her personally and followed her just to clear things. What is Jimin thinking anyway?

The issue between them like they are dating is not helping too.

SM policy is the Artist/Idols are not allowed to have serious or intimate relationship unless it's badly needed for publicity or the contract between company and artist are done.

It's for their own good, just like what Joohyun said and probably it is the SM Entertainment line.

Less hassle, less issue, less heartbreak so they can only focus on their careers. Nothing more.

And suddenly why is she thinking about relationships? Seulgi mildly slap her face.

Why is she thinking about it? She really out of her mind. Joohyun words didn't even have huge impact to her because until now Seulgi is thinking about Jimin.

Her Leader will probably scold her again if Joohyun knew what is Seulgi's thinking.

Relationship didn't comes to Seulgi's mind when she decided to be an Idol and now that her dream is finally on her hand, she can't just throw it away for a man she just met and knew.

Is this the effect of letting a man crossing the lane? Because for Seulgi it's not funny and sweet anymore.