harder to breathe | seulmin √

why

Harder To Breathe (xxviii)

What to do? what to say? what to feel?

Shock? She was more than that when she reads the messages. Seulgi didn't stop and also open the gifts from the bin.

Gifts that you wouldn't call a gift at all.

Edited pictures of Irene that purposely make unpleasant to the eyes.

Why? More why's is running again on Seulgi's mind. Why this is happening?

Why there's a kind of people that tend to be like this? Tend to do this kind of thing? Why do people always say something without knowing them? Without knowing the truth? Without giving them a chance to prove themselves?

And Why Seulgi only saw this now? All this year Joohyun was keeping it from them. Why? For them not to be worried? But how come they got this far.

People wishing them to get vanished, wishing they didn't exist.

Yes, they want fame, that's why this is their work, they need fame in order to get known and live but not this kind of way, not with hatred along side with it.

Yes, they were warned. This industry is no joke. You will meet different kinds of people, people that love you but there's always a person who will never like you even if you do everything. They will hate you even if you do nothing.

Acting like a fan but giving them this kind of things? It's too much. Too much for Seulgi and definitely too much for Joohyun. Too much for all of them.

Joohyun unnie. Is this the reason why you're doing this to me? It is because of this? You experienced it and you don't want me to experience it too. Seulgi wanted to cry while thinking all of this.

Seulgi was not the only one who receive this kind of treatment. They all do.

Sooyoung experienced the same thing when she was paired for a virtual marriage and her drama.

Then Joohyun with Park Bo-Gum as an MC.

And now Seulgi with Jimin without any basis.

This is not a joke. Joohyun don't deserve this and so is Seulgi, Sooyoung, Yerim and Seungwan.

They don't deserve this.

Gifts from the fans, they thought it would give them happiness but what is this? Why they need to act as if they were a fan, a supporters but the truth is they're just going to ruin them? Their hearts?

How will she tell? How can Seulgi tell Joohyun that she now knew it? Now that Seulgi understands Joohyun for being so strict.

"Unnie!" Seulgi heard Sooyoung calling her. The younger was about to open Joohyun's room when Seulgi rush to it and place the things back to the trash bin.

"Yes?" Seulgi go out and lock Joohyun's door.

Seulgi think the other members don't need to know. Not now. Not without Joohyun saying it personally.

"Yah! Unnie why are you running?" Sooyoung might heard Seulgi running away from Joohyun's room. 

"Anyway, there's a package for you." Sooyoung added and pointed the box.

"Where did it come from?" Seulgi asked confused. She never heard that her Appa will send her something. Well Seulgi's expecting it was from his father because he always send her package like this.

So Seulgi get the box and decided to open it in her room.

A pillow bear with a small note on its box.

Hi Seulbear ! Hope you love it ♡
- JM