harder to breathe | seulmin √

she can't

Harder To Breathe (xxv)

Seulgi can't lie, not with Joohyun. Not with Joohyun's glaring eyes that holing over the monolid Girl.

"Seriously? Stop glaring, you're scaring me!" Seulgi throw her pillow at Joohyun side. Hoping for another facial expression that will come out to her leaders face but, Seulgi got nothing.

"I'm serious here Kang Seulgi." Joohyun still glaring at her not minding Seulgi's other pillow waiting to be thrown. Calling Seulgi by her whole name made Seulgi realized that Joohyun is indeed serious. She can't get away with Joohyun being like that.

Seulgi put down her pillow and walk over to Joohyun who is now sitting straight at her bed, still eyeing her. Both of them in the bed.

"I lied." Seulgi leans her back at the head board. Telling the truth is actually a relief but it can make people see and change things.

Seulgi waits for Joohyun to get angry but Red Velvet Leader's silence is signaling Seulgi to continue talking and tell the real truth.

"I don't know how and why but I always ended up with him, It's like we're playing hide and seek and he always finds me. I don't know what is happening but our world seems very close that I always see him everywhere, I always felt this weird feelings towards him.

This is the first time that I felt this. This heart of mine keeps beating faster when he's near and missing him when he's not around. My breathing when he's near is uncontrollable and it's making me harder to breathe.

Do you think I like him?"

Seulgi looked up. Not knowing that she was crying the whole time she's talking, she tried her best to prevent her tears to fall.

That's it, she finally let her feelings out to somebody. It was hard and heavy to bear with but Joohyun is there. Seulgi hopes that everything is going to be alright after this.

"So It's Park Jimin." Joohyun say Jimin's name, hard and bold. Seulgi looked at the older Girl and smiled sadly.

Park Jimin is so much trouble. She nood.

"Yes. It's Jimin." Seulgi laugh with sadness.

Seulgi knows the truth and ruthless way behind her industry. She can't be with Jimin even if they both want to. Right from the start they can't be.

People.

Fans.

Career.

Seulgi can't risk it. She knows both of them can't. They're going to lose all of the things they have if they want to be together.

Afterall their feelings are not yet sure.

In reality People owns the Celebrities. Controlling them to what they wanted them to be.

Judging them for a single mistake.

Preventing them to fall in love with the men or women they truly wanted to be with.

"You should avoid him." Joohyun talks again after a few minutes of being silent.

Avoid Jimin? Seulgi tried. She tried but the universe is finding a way to connect her path with him and she's tired of masking her feelings. She let Jimin stay with her even if it's only means for seconds.

Seulgi just want to hug him. Hold his hands. Touch his cheeks. Look at him and see him smile.

"I tried."

The things with Jimin is new. Seulgi just want to embrace the feelings she has, even if she is not sure at all. She badly wants it but she knew she couldn't do that.

"Then try harder Seulgi." Joohyun added. More colder.