harder to breathe | seulmin √

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Harder To Breathe (xxix)

JM who? Seulgi thought it was really his Father.

She knew nothing about who JM is, she recalls some of the names of her friends and classmates before, even some of the Idols she knew who named Jm but there's none.

She doesn't remember any Jm at all.

Who is Jm? Is he one of some random fans who sent them gifts?

She has a lot of Teddy bears now and her babies have another brother again. 

But seconds passed Seulgi's excitement was placed by worries.

O-oh.

Seulgi was very thankful for every gift she received but after what she saw back at Joohyun's room, Seulgi started doubting her fans too.

Would they go this far too? Her bashers? Her haters? Like sending her false and harmful things just like what they did to Joohyun?

Seulgi hope they're not. Seulgi hopes that they will do nothing against her members again.

She wishes them to stop hating them. She wished.

Seulgi's plan is to place the Teddy Bear to her collection of gifts but when she looks at the bear closely something in her heart beats and she feels the hardness of breathing.

Maybe it doesn't want to place it there with her other toys.

"What's with you?" Seulgi asks the bear as if it will talk and answer her.

What's with the bear that she cannot pinpoints? And what's with the beating heart and unable to breathe properly? It's like what she felt when Jimin is around.

Seulgi slap herself... she remembered Jimin again.

Not now that she's too preoccupied with something else.

She focuses again on the bear, fighting the urge to think of Park Jimin.

It's so easy to put it together with her bunch of gifts in her cabinet but she's still holding it, looking at the bear intently as if its talking to her saying not to put it away from her side.

"Should I call you Bear?" Seulgi thought of the name but ended up with nothing cool.

Seriously? Bear? Can't she have anything in mind?

"Bear is fine, but it's so common. What about JM? Was it a cool name? Its your sender." Seulgi placed the new bear she named JM on her lap like it was a kid she's playing with.

"You must feel special, I never named my toys, you know? But now you got yours and you're also sleeping beside me. How lucky." Seulgi finally decided where she could place it.

She will just place the bear to her bed. 

Hug it when she's sleeping.

Seulgi laughs at her own craziness. Really Seulgi? Talking to a stuffed toy?

"Seulgi unnie who are you talking to? Let's eat!" Sooyoung peeps at her room looking curious about what she's doing.

Oops.

Seulgi smiles out of embarrassment, the younger probably saw her talking to a Teddy Bear. How embarrassing.