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Harder To Breathe (xix)

You made him do that.

This is what you want.

It's your fault.

He did his part.

You of all people should do the same.

You should be happy but why are you crying right now?

Seulgi held her chest tightly, gasping for some air and she is unable to move. Her head is full of questions.

She feels like something is breaking and it's so painful.

Why does she feels that way? Why she feels like she's hurting?

She doesn't want any of that pain. She wanted to erase what she felt because it doesn't feel right. 

And Park Jimin is right, they're not friends nor anything at all to begin with. But why she's feeling that?

Seulgi sat and leans down on the wall only looking at her white untainted shoes. She can't even walk to enter the washroom anymore.

She doesn't want to see her face reflection in the mirror now, she's afraid she'll know what it is all about.

She's afraid to realise what it is.

Seulgi don't want to see how she look so stupid because she feel so crazy for feeling that way.

That is what she wanted but clearly what she wants is breaking her. She wanted to hate him but honestly she can't.

How is that possible? Why it's happening to her? And is she what? Scared?

Is that what she's afraid of? Falling? Is that falling at all? Why can't she stop herself? Why is she missing him? And why she's hurt?

Then everything went back to that question.

Is Seulgi falling deeply? Or she fell really hard?

Seulgi laugh together with the silent around her and her backstabber tears.

She wanted everything to stop.

"Seulgi?" She heard a voice and someone bent down to see her. Seulgi looks at the person and smile slightly to him and the person next to him.

"Heechul Oppa." Then she got up and hugged him without thinking about anything.

Silence.

"Yah! Why are you crying?" Heechul helped her to stand straight. He then patted her head like a dog.

Seulgi is now aware of her surroundings and she was alarmed by the two people next to her.

"Nothing. I'm just practicing for my next drama Oppa." Seulgi lied and smiled again at Heechul.

Heechul didn't buy the lie especially Jongin who's standing silently by their side. The two men know that Seulgi don't even have a drama offer at the moment.

Seulgi knows both of the boys really well and they are actually close. Heechul and Jongin knows Seulgi is lying but the two just smiled and nodded their head, not questioning her anymore.

Ever since Seulgi trained at SM Entertaiment, Heechul and Jongin was there to help the younger girl. They are a good teacher and adviser especially Heechul.

Such a nice Sunbaenim's.

"You are a weird kid. Look at yourself? You are so ugly! I can't believe you are my favorite girl." Heechul place his hand over her head and ruin Seulgi's hairstyle. He always does that to annoy Seulgi and Jongin is just smiling at them.

The younger laughed but there she is, still in tears. Seulgi felt lighter now that someone is there and She is glad that it was her favorite Sunbaes.

Heechul is such a caring father and annoying brother figure. He always takes care of Seulgi.

They made her misses her dad and brother more.

If she can just open up her problems to them just like how she tells everything to his father.

"Hyung!"

"What are you doing there?! We're going to perform next!"

"Pali! Pali!"

Someone shouted somewhere and both Heechul, Jongin and Seulgi turned their heads and saw that someone was standing behind them. Meters away. Dark and gloomy eyes.

Seulgi thought he already left?

"Oy! Jimin'ssi." Heechul playfully called Park Jimin.