harder to breathe | seulmin √

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Harder To Breathe (xiv) 

She didn't hear anything. No she didn't.

She hoped she didn't.

"Seulgi." Joohyun concerned voice called her name. They were now standing in front, no one dared to moves as if time freezes itself.

It was cold and dark.

Seulgi only just stare at Joohyun blankly. She doesn't know what to say. She doesn't know what to do. Her mind is clouded by that voice and it won't let her think more or anything else.

The studio went quiet for a moment, they didn't expected it. Some of the audience felt sorry for her while the others didn't care at all.

Phones are everywhere but then after a few minutes, people acted like nothing happen.

How can they do that? Seulgi and Red Velvet can't.

She is not a slut. Is she?

Is she a slut? Why? Why her?

Is it because of Jimin? The issue?

All the question keeps on coming to her like a wave of angry ocean.

But it's not true! Seulgi wanted to shout but her mind once again occupied by so many things.

She looked at the direction of someone and she saw  it staring at her too.

Full of worried in his eyes. He also looked angry. Will it help Seulgi?

Will it erase what just happened? No.

Please don't look at me like that. I really hate you right now. Seulgi wanted to say those but instead she slightly bowed at him and pretend it's nothing.

Seulgi can now finally move.

She smiled at everyone like nothing happened. She smiled like that girl didn't insulted her.

Seulgi started to dance again. The pause music followed after her and other Red Velvet member move to dance against their will.

They badly wanted to stop and go to Seulgi but the main dancer itself act professional. They should too.

Deep inside Seulgi wanted to cry and run. Hide somewhere far, because it hurt so much. It marks and it stings so much.

It is so painful for her to hear that kind of word. She understand that word. Seulgi knows what it means.

Someone just tell her she's a slut. Someone hate her that much too say it live and loud.

But She is Kang Seulgi. She is a professional Artist so, she manages to smile because she wants everyone to know that she's strong. It didn't matter at all.

Seulgi want to dance again, even with the previous music was already done.

Maybe she can redo what just happened. Maybe she's hallucinating because of tiredness.

She's felt so pathetic.

The music plays one more time for another song and Seulgi stare at the people around her blankly but she's still smiling.

Seulgi just want to go home.

"Everything is fine. They already kicked and blocked that girl to every show." Sooyoung said angrily and her fist is getting red.

"Seulgi." Seungwan can't help but hug Seulgi when she saw her friend tried its best not to cry.

"Are you okay, Seulgi unnie?" Yerim tap her shoulder with sadness all over her face.