first we
found the picture
of the measuring weights
where your pain
outweighs your
coping resourcesthen we found the site
with the picture of
spilt wine and pillswe read the letter from the guy
that made the website
and as hard as we tried
we couldn't buy his assurances
of 'everything will be okay'we found the tables with
success rates, time and
relative agony
and we realised Kurt Cobain
had it all figured outwe read the separate tabs
for every method,
convinced that pills and
razors in bathtubs
were a pretty shitty
way to goexits bags seemed alright.
painless and foolproof,
and we scanned all the
websites with smiling
elderly people and
tried to get our hands
of helium.we tried to read the densest
translation of Camus
we had every found.
and although we
ended up reading
'The Stranger' instead
the gist of 'The Myth of Sisyphus'
appealed - everything was
pointless,
and we just couldn't
enjoy the absurdand we questioned
and questioned it all,
wondering how
everyone else
just lives with this
knowledge:
that everything is
meaninglesswondering how
all the bowling pins
in jackets
elbowing their way
through a sidewalk
in New York
can find a reason
to get up
in the morning
instead of
shooting
themselves
in the head...we might've discovered Alan Watts
and Zen Buddhism through a sci-fi
novelsome of us might've taken pills or talked to therapists
there are those that accepted the fapstronaut challenged or reconnected with friends
and others might've simply recaptured the queer spark that keeps us living.
in any case,
know you're not alone
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(untitled) -- a collection of experimental poetry [COMPLETE]
Poetrymy keyboard is a minefield. my mind is broken glass. when my body bursts apart, the shards catch light and look like blinking stars. ( 1 year of poetry )