A Reason to Live (Jensen Ackles)

Chapter 35

A/N- Okay, they both look absolutely amazing in this picture (Jared especially), but Jensen reminds me of Mark P. (Lucifer). I have no idea, but...yeah...

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I continued to watch as Danneel stepped up to the graves. She introduced herself to my brother and sister before walking over to my mother's grave. 

"Hello, I'm Danneel, Jensen's wife. I love your daughter like my own. I'm so glad that I can call myself her mother. I will never be able to replace you, but I hope that I can provide her with the same love that you did. I hope I can be there when she needs a mother. I would've loved to meet you." 

She stepped back from the graves and joined Jensen on the sidewalk. 

I knew that Justice had no idea what was going on, but she wanted to be like her parents. 

She stepped up to the graves and introduced herself to all of them at the same time. 

"I love my sissy!" she said. "We spend a lot of time together! We play together and we watch movies together! She helps watch me when mommy's busy. She even gave me a bath once! Don't tell mommy, but it was one of the best bath's I've had! It was so fun!" 

 She continued to follow her parents and walked over to the sidewalk. 

Jared stepped up to my brother's grave. He had his own flowers in his hands. The same colors as well, but different flowers. He set the flowers on their respective graves before addressing them at the same time. He introduced himself, also noting that he was Sam on Supernatural. 

"Bella hasn't really said anything about her uncles. I assume she has at least one. I hope that I can be a good uncle. I hope I can take her out and have fun with her. I hope I can give her a break from her parents when she needs it. I hope I can help raise her into a fine woman. She's already so incredible. She's so beautiful and smart and kind. Mrs. Forbes, you did an incredible job at raising her, and thank you, Claire and Wyatt, for helping." 

He too walked to the sidewalk and I watched them walk away, leaving me alone. 

Once they were out of sight I crumpled to the ground on my hands and knees. The tears that I had been trying to keep in escaped. The feeling that I had been keeping in for the day burst out. 

I don't know how long I was sitting there, sobbing, until I stopped enough to talk.

I crawled in front of my brother's grave and began talking. 

"Wyatt, I miss you so much. Playing games isn't as fun without you. Whenever I get stuck, I don't have anyone to ask, I have to look it up. Sometimes I still turn to ask you for help, but you're not there you're gone. I have no one to argue and bicker with like we used to. I won't get to hear you groan when I put on One Direction. You probably know this, but sometimes I only played it because I knew it would annoy you. I loved watching you play games. You always had to get everything, every power up and item in the game, you had to have it. I never really told you this, but I love you. I love you with all of my heart and I wish I told you more than I did." 

I kissed my fingers and then placed them on the gravestone before moving over to my sister's grave. 

"Claire, I miss you so much. I miss the conversations that we would have about Supernatural. I have yet to meet another person who is as enthusiastic about it as you are. No one in the house watches it. Of course, I do talk to Jensen and Jared about it, but it's not the same. Oh, Claire, you would've loved to meet them. They're just like we always imagined. Funny, kind, and so many other things. I miss going on a drive in the evenings. We would blast music and roll the windows all the way down. Our hair would always be so tangled after that. It was a pain trying to brush it out, but it was so worth it. I love you with all of my heart. I told you a lot more than I ever told Wyatt, but I still should have told you more." 

I kissed my fingers and placed them on her gravestone as well. 

Lastly, I moved over to my mother's grave. 

I just sat there and studied the stone with her name on it, trying to control my tears. I continuously wiped my eyes, hoping that maybe that would stop them. My nose was running as well. I was sure that if my brother were alive he would've picked on me for it. 

"Hey, mom. I miss you more than you will ever know. I miss watching Supernatural with you. I miss watching your reactions to what happened. I miss talking to you about my day every night. I miss putting puzzles together with you. I miss shopping with you. I miss telling you about the books I read. I miss showing you everything I draw and create. I miss seeing how proud you are of my grades. Jensen and Danneel enrolled me at a new school and I got straight A's this year. I made a bunch of new friends too and no one even really cares that Jensen is my dad. I still hate how you would never tell me anything about my biological father, but that doesn't matter now. I love you so much. I know I told you every single day that I loved you, but you will never know how much. I miss you with every fiber of my being." 

I kissed my fingers one more time before placing them on the gravestone and moving back so I could talk to all of them. 

"I miss all of you so much, but I don't want you to worry. I'm in good hands. Jensen is an amazing dad. He taught me what it was like to have a father. I could never ask for more. Danneel is amazing. She could never replace you, mom, but I love her. She takes me shopping and I know I can tell her anything. Justice is just so adorable. She's the little sister I always asked for, but you always said you wouldn't have any more kids. I know that they love me. I can see it in their eyes when they look at me. They treat me like one of their own and that's all I could ask for. I love them. They could never replace you, but they're my family. You don't have to worry about me. Thank you for everything that you did for me." 

I hoped that they could hear me from wherever they were. I really want them to know that I'm okay. 

I wiped my eyes again and sniffled before continuing. 

"When I lost you, I was in a bad place. I wouldn't eat, I wouldn't sleep. I started cutting myself. There were even times when I considered suicide, but they saved me."

 "They gave me A Reason to Live."

The End

A/N- I can't believe it's over! I cried writing the last three chapters. I'm kinda sad that it's over. I really really hoped you liked it! I had so much fun writing it. At first, it was only supposed to be a one shot, but I started writing it and it became a book! I hope it didn't get boring and I'm sorry for the short chapters. Please, no matter how much you have commented, please comment on this chapter. Tell me what you liked, what you didn't like, what I could have or should have done, and lastly, tell me what you thought of the overall plot. Also, if you could also comment on what you think of my writing style and grammar/punctuation, that would be amazing. Thank you so much for reading!! Stay tuned because tomorrow I will be starting a Castiel story if you are interested! Also, I'm pretty sure most of you or all of you know, but I also have a one shot and a Sam story if you didn't know! Till next time!!