5 years I haven’t gone on date. 5 years I haven’t kissed anyone. 5 years I haven’t said ‘I love you’ to someone but now it’s going to change. I’m going on date with the man who is the love of my life. I am not afraid to say the love of my life because nine years showed that my love for him is real.
I look in the mirror for the last time. Taking a deep breath, I grab my purse from the bed and head out of the room. Everything is going to be okay, Demi. Don’t forget to break.
I went to the restaurant as soon as possible but anyways, I am late. I get out of the car and fix my dress before coming inside. Wilmer is already sitting at the table, so I take another deep breath and walk to him.
“Hey?” I say shyly as he looks up at me. He immediately stands up and hugs me tightly. I wrap my hands around him too. A sigh escape my lips as tears start running down my cheeks. I used to think that he will never hug me again. I thought I lost him forever. But I have never regretted what I did, because seeing the happy Elisabeth is worth it.
“Shh” He strokes my back. It makes me cry even harder because I spend every night alone, I cry every single evening but no one is there for me. No one can hug me like he used to do. No one can sing me stupid songs, which always calms to down. He’s not here for me anymore, and although 5 years have passed, I’m still not over it.
We pull away from each other and Wilmer wipes my tears away. I close my eyes as his thumbs touching my skin, I missed his touches so much. I sit on the chair as Wilmer sits in front of me, taking my hand and holding it. I can’t help but close my eyes and let more tears run down my cheeks. It just feels so right and so wrong at the same time. He has a daughter, a girlfriend and there am I: an adult, who is in love like a teenager girl. He has a family, while I have just a broken heart.
“Don’t cry, Demi.” Wilmer says, stroking my hand but it isn’t helping at all. Suddenly he stands up and I start cry harder. Is he leaving me? But then he sits beside me and wraps his hands around my shoulders. He holds me tightly, while I sob quietly. Somehow I came back to the time, when we came back together, we were at the same restaurant… Maybe it’s a sign.
“Sorry” I whisper and wipe my tears away quickly. I look at Wilmer face and see a small smile on his face. We sit close, his hand still wrapped around my shoulder. I rest my head on his chest and listen to his calm breathing. One more time I realize how amazing he is.
I look up at his face again and somehow he leans closer, so our lips touch. I close my eyes and wrap my hands around his neck. Everything in me is shouting that we’re kissing in public and everyone can see us, but I don’t care because it feels too good. We pull away unwillingly and stare deep into each other eyes.
“I’m sorry.” Wilmer says, pulling away from me. He sits in his previous position in front of me and looks at me with smile. I can’t help but answer him with a smile too, feeling butterflies in my stomach. Oh God, it’s going to be a long evening.
“So, how are you? How’s Elisabeth?” I ask. I want to start a conversation because somehow it feels awkward to sit and stare at each other without saying anything. Wilmer smiles wider as he hears Elisabeth’s name.
“My baby girl is awesome. I love her so much, like I said before, she’s the light of my life. After you left my life was really dark, but she helped me to find the light again.” He says, looking at the glass of water in front of him. “What about you?”
“Everything is okay, more or less, but okay. I wrote millions songs after we broke up. I guess I won’t have enough time to share them all.” I giggle. “You should come to me and listen to them because they all are about you.” I say as Wilmer smiles again.
“Have you really been alone all this time?” Wilmer suddenly asks, “I mean, no sex for five years?” He laughs and I giggle too. Then I nod my head as he shakes his head, not believing.
“It’s true.” I say, blushing. No matter how bad I wanted to be with someone, it was impossible. Every time Wilmer was in my mind, and somehow I felt like if I will do it, I will cheat on him… And I didn’t want that. I knew that one day I will have to let everything go, because I can’t spend all my life like a nun, but I am not ready to let go of it right now.
“You amaze me.” He laughs again. I just smile and look out of the window. It’s getting dark, we probably are sitting here more than 2 hours, although it felt like ten minutes. No matter how much I don’t want to go out, we need to. The restaurant will close soon, plus I’m afraid of dark. I don’t live to walk in the dark.
“I need to go.” I say, sadly.
“Can I escort you home?” Wilmer asks, putting his hand on mine again. Shivers run through my body as I nod. At least we will be able to spend more time together.
“Sure, if you want to.” I say as I stand up. Wilmer stands up too, and we walk out of the restaurant. It feels really strange when we walk close but don’t hold our hands. Welcome to reality, Demi, he’s not yours anymore.“It’s cold.” I state as we are outside and the cold air hits my naked shoulders.
“Here.” He says and puts his jacket on my shoulder. I smile to him as he wraps his hand around my waist, pulling me closer. We walk to his car, and he opens the door as a true gentlemen. I get in the car, still with a smile in my face.
The way to my apartment is silent, I don’t know what to say and, honestly, I don’t want to say anything because I enjoy our comfortable silence.
The car stops in front of my apartment and Wilmer finally turns to me. Our eyes meet and I smile again. I smile too much, God, I need to stop.
“Maybe you want to come in?” I ask, “We could drink a coffee, and talk about something…” I suggest. Wilmer thinks for a moment and then he finally nods his head. We get out of the car and start walking. It doesn’t take long since we reach my apartment door. I pull out the key from my purse and unlock the door. We quietly walk inside.
I put my purse on the table in the living room and then I walk to the kitchen. Wilmer sits in the living room, and looks around. I’m sure he remembers this apartment, we were here for a few times. When I come back from the kitchen, I sit beside Wilmer. I turn to him wanting to say something but he grabs my head and presses our lips together.
At first I didn’t answer because I don’t really understand what’s happening but soon I kiss him back. He pulls me on his laps and I straddle him. A quiet moan escapes my mouth as he leaves my lips and kissed down to my neck.
“No, it’s wrong.” I push him away. “You have a girlfriend.”
“I don’t love her, and you know that.” He says as he presses his lips to mine again. I start moving my hips on him, turning him on even more. We will make love tonight, I know that. I can oppose right now but a few minutes later I will be laying under him, moaning his name.
“If we’re doing it, let’s go to the bedroom.” I whisper as he pulls away. He nods his head and stands up, making me wrap my legs around his torso. As he carries me to my bedroom, I kiss and suck on his neck. We reach the bed and he drops me on it. He climbs on the bed too, kissing my lips again.
“I hope you still have a condom” He whispers, kissing down my neck to my shoulder. I giggle, nodding my head. He grins and kisses my lips again. I was right: it’s going to be a lot night.
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