“Don’t cry.” I shout on myself, looking into the mirror. He changed, he fucking changed. So why am I crying? He’s no longer what I want. He’s not the same man, who I fell in love with. He was different. I hate his new side.
I can’t believe that he doesn’t want to fight for Elisabeth. I would have never thought that he can be like that. God, how would he react if I would tell him about our baby? I shake my head and wipe tears away from my cheeks.
I spent most of my life running after him, suffering because of him and now it’s over. Just like that. Simply. Seems like he has never loved me. If he would feel something he would be trying to stop me but he didn’t. He just sat there.
I feel tears running down my cheeks again but angrily I wipe them away and look back into the mirror. I look pale, my eyes and nose are red. Well, in short I look like a zombie. But I guess it’s a good thing. This reaction can be expected. After all, I suffered because of him for almost ten years…But deep down I still believe… I still hope…
I hear a knock at the door, so I quickly wipe away the tears and rush to open the door. I fix my hear and wipe my cheeks for a last time before opening the door. And to my surprise, unfortunately there is Wilmer. My heart skips a beat, while my knees go weak. What is he doing here?
“What do you want?” I find my voice and ask.
“I’m sorry.” He says and wraps his hands around me. I want to object but his arms feel too good so I stay quiet. Although one part of me still wants to kill him. “I was in shock, Demi.” His voice cuts my thoughts. “I didn’t know how to react or what to do. Elisabeth, the only person, who was left to me, is not my daughter. What if she doesn’t want me near her anymore? I have no one. You… I love you, Demi, more than you can imagine but this is so fucked-up. I don’t know what to do.” He signs and continues, “I could do anything just to be happy with you, Demi. Just… Everything seems impossible. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of drama.”
I stay quiet. I know how he feels. I feel the same but how can I trust him again? How can he trust me again? Maybe it’s really too much for our relationship? Maybe we’re really not mean to be together… Maybe…
“Let’s get married.” He whispers and I immediately pull away.
“What?”
“Let’s get married. Right now” He says as I look deep into his eyes. He’s kidding, right?
“I-“
“Let’s get married and have babies. Let’s be happy, okay? Let’s take Elisabeth from that hospital and take her somewhere. I don’t know. I just need to be with you. No matter what happens, I can’t lose you again.”
“I… I need to think.” Do I really want to marry him? Why is he asking that right now?
“You know me for 10 years, Demi. What you should think about?” He asks.
“I… I don’t know what I want…”
