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You are my Macky but I am no Ethan.
That is always the thing about me--I am never enough for anyone. I will never be the 'one' for another person. For reasons I don't really get, I still feel that I am incompetent. I am not that kind of person one can fall in love with.
Maybe this was just a moment that will never last. This feeling is not meant to last.
Or should I keep convincing myself that?
So I ask myself a bunch of questions. Do I ask for a lot of things? Do I dream so big to the point it became irrational? Do I wish again for someone I could never have?
What is wrong with me?
What makes me so unlovable?
It sucks that I could never have a straight answer.
That is why I am no Ethan. In the end, Ethan had the courage to accept who he was. Despite his recurring thoughts that he "was not that kind of person" and pushing away his feelings, he bravely overcomes these in order to confess his feelings to Macky.
I don't tell lies, but I am not completely honest either. This is one of the cases that I couldn't accept myself.
I hate myself for liking you, Macky. I hate myself for creating a story like that, because that is exactly what I dream of.
I hate myself.
There's no point in this stuff. Maybe I was not meant to be with someone.
Prove me wrong, Future Leon. Prove me wrong.
