Alone

Stupid Girl

Kylie's POV.

   Today's Sunday, and I'm meeting up with Ryder at the movies later on. As friends of course. Or maybe not, my heart flutters. Shut up, it's not a date. I reply back to my fluttering heart. Or is it?

   What am I doing? I'm having a f*cking conversation with myself...what a freak.

   I laugh quietly to myself, before putting on some of the new clothes Ryder picked out for me. It felt good to be able to wear something I know he likes. I wear black ripped jeans, converse sneakers, a black tank top, a red plad shirt tied around my waist, and a red beanie.

   I usually wear black hoodies, but I think that would ruin the outfit. I grab my skateboard and go for a ride, just going through the different towns. I enjoy the beautiful day, soaking it in.

   I was going pretty fast, when something catches my eye. I quickly stop my skateboard and step on the end so that it's in my hands. I see someone sitting against a tree kind of secluded from everything else.

   I walk over quietly, and I see Ryder's friend...well I guess they aren't really friends anymore..I see Tyler. He seems to be deep in thought, he's sitting with his back against the tree, and his knees are pulled up. He's staring, not blinking at the ground.

   "Hey," I say, startling him. He pulls his head up towards me, squinting his eyes because of the sun. He smiles once he notices it's me.

   "Hey, what's up?" he says, making no moves to stand up, so I sit next to him.

   "I was just skateboarding, and I saw you here, you seemed deep in thought. Save thinking for school, that's my moto," I say with a slight laugh.

   "Haha, yeah...just got a lot on my mind," he mutters.

   "Tell me," I reply, getting comfortable.

   He jerks his head at me, surprised. "What?" he says, sounding shocked.

   "Tell me what's on your mind. I will listen with no interruption," I smile at him.

   "Okay," he says slowly. "Well, as you know me and Summer are really good friends. Well she might be...moving away soon-"

   I cut him off. "What?!?" I yell at him, and he glares at me because I said I wouldn't interrupt him. "Sorry," I say in a calmer voice. "Continue."

   "Well, I want her to know I like her, no I love her. But I don't know if she feels the same way, I don't know if she's ready for it," he says, then starts talking faster as he gets more frustrated. "and we couldn't even make it public, I'm not supposed to be near Summer at all, Lukas would literally kill me, and I just want to keep her safe, and I can't do it. I can't do it," he says, putting his head in his hands. I rub his back.

   "Hey, don't be so hard on yourself. You're trying and that's what matters. Have you ever thought of telling the principle about Lukas?" I ask, and he lifts his head up slightly, looking at me like I'm crazy. "His dad is the principle," he says before putting his head back down.

    "Well...just be together secretly, if she wants to that is."

   "But I'd be putting her in danger! Lukas is a living devil! I can barely even keep myself safe, how am I gonna keep her safe?" he lifts his head all the way up, staring me straight in the eyes. I see the pain in his eyes. He really cares about Summer.

   He licks his lips, then takes a deep breath before looking away. "I love her," he says quietly.

   I stay silent, unsure of what to say or do. "I've gotta go," he mutters, then stands up and walks away.

   I get up and look at the time. I've gotta meet up with Ryder now. I skateboard down to the mall, then sit at the bench he said he would meet me at. The sun has already started to go down, and the movie starts in ten minutes. I wait patiently barely holding in my excitement, but soon everyone has entered the theater. The time keeps going by, and soon it's dark and cold out. Did he forget? No, he wouldn't forget.

   I rub my arms, wishing I wore that hoodie anyway. I look around and don't see a single person. As I wait the seconds turn into minutes, and the minutes turn into hours.. I keep waiting even after everyone leaves the movie and the mall closes. Half of me keeps saying he's not coming, he forgot about me. But the other half is hoping that he's still coming, he's just late...three hours late.

He will come, he will. I know he will. I tap my foot patiently. He's going to come, and even though we missed the movie, we can still talk and hang out. I smile to myself. Yeah, that would be wonderful. I huddle up on the bench, trying to stay warm. What if he lends me his jacket? I think, a small smile overtaking my lips. I keep checking my phone for texts from him, but he hasn't sent any. He will come...he will..

   Finally at one in the morning I stand up from the bench, tears brimming my eyes. I was stood up. He forgot about me, how could I think he would ever want to date me? I'm so stupid, I thought this was some kind of date. Stupid girl. I wiped tears as I skateboard home, but they just keep flooding. I eventually can't see anymore, so I stop and sit on the sidewalk.

   Why does it even matter to me so much? He's just a boy. But I like him, I like him a lot. He makes me happy. I try to be mad at him, but I am only mad at myself. I blame myself, I was an idiot to think he'd want some stupid girl like me.

   I throw the hat he picked out for me on the ground, then I walk home, not having the energy to skateboard.

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    Sorry for the slow update, I'm kind of having a writers block. Please DM me if you have any good ideas for what I should write about, or who's POV you'd like to hear next. Thanks for reading, don't forget to comment and vote! Love y'all!