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Chapter 22- The Wedding preparations

Solomon's POV

I sighed as I stared at the bright city lights of New York city. As usual I can't sleep and I've been like this for the past five years. A lot had happened, I've been managing the company for four years now and it has been prospering through the years. I've finished my masters degree, met new friends, business partners and got engaged but there was always something missing in between the lines that I couldn't figure out, not until the day I saw that woman in Bahamas. It was her that made me realize what I've been missing, it's not all about the money or the luxury that almost everyone wished to have to made a person happy, but it is the joy, the butterflies and the tingles I felt when I heard her voice, I smelled her scent and saw how the sun touched her skin. It can't be a mistake but I know that same girl was the same girl I've been looking for the rest of my life. It was only then that I've realized I had her but after a matter of time I lost her like the dust in the wind and she was gone forever.

It's funny that the woman in Bahamas was someone I felt like I've know for almost my entire life. Everything seemed familiar, from the way her lips moved to the way she stood up and walked away from me like the whole bright sunshine was replaced by an unending catastrophe.

I thought it was only her, later did I realize that I felt it because she reminded me of someone. All I've felt felt was the familiarity of what once happened but now they're only memories. Everything goes back to the center of this catastrophe, the woman named Ally who might have never existed in the first place, any trace anything was not in the system or any records.

I twirled my glass and pour some more drink as I tried to drown myself and later would fall asleep to face the same cycle of life again tomorrow. I wasn't like this until she came and disrupted my system. It's like she left with a big part of me, it's true that we only know the value of someone when they're gone, and we often take the important things for granted.

As I poured the last drop in my glass, I wished this would end, I wished that somehow, I would know what to do and I could like the way I used to before. That's my last thought as I slowly drifted into the deep slumber.

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It was morning and as usual, my fiancé is here, bringing me coffee and breakfast. It has been a routine and I felt like I had just need to get used to it.

"More coffee?" Karen asked as she stood up to get more coffee.

I nodded and stayed silent like I used to.

We still aren't married after five years of engagement. It's weird that Carl will already have two kids when all along everyone expected him to grow old alone, while I'm still here, engaged to Karen for so long already.

Our parents had been so excited with the wedding but it never happened and it was all because of me. I made reasons hundreds of them just to postpone the wedding, and later on they just decided to let us talk about it, for the better. After that, I never brought out the topic to Karen but I know her parents are angry at me and they felt like I'm just making Karen wait for nothing and I'm guilty of it.

The only reason they asked me to marry her was to improve our failing business but as I took over, it had been prospering and we wouldn't need Karen's family to help anymore. That's the reason why they had been pushing me to marry her, that maybe because sooner or later I'd just drop the bomb and decide to stop everything and leave Karen.

Karen had been so nice to me and I don't know how to say it but it pains me to break her heart. She is a wonderful and kind person but I just couldn't make her get hurt more once I marry her and not give her the love she deserves.

I took her hand and she was shocked at the next word I uttered.

"Let's get married after I come back from the conference after one week."

Karen suddenly hugged me and I felt my shirt being soaked from her tears. I held her tight like I never wanted her to go, because I felt like the moment I let go of her, I would be living this lifeless life forever, waiting for someone who wouldn't even arrive, not in a thousand years.

I don't know where I got the courage to say those words but I just couldn't do this anymore, I can't make her wait forever and I couldn't wait for her forever. Waiting is a mistake, that's what I've learned. I can't let anything make my life like a stagnant water I need to change my life and the only one that could do that is me.

It's better to start a life now and if it's meant to be then it will be.