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Dear Diary (2nd May 2014)

2nd of May, 2014

Dear Diary

It's been months since I last spoke with you! I'm sorry, but here it is what happened.

Felix beat me up, and left me almost dead.

Somehow I managed to survive, of course this girl named Lizzy helped me. She healed me and all.

But. There's something I need to tell you too.

As much as i wish to hate him for what he did to me, I can't. He's been also staying here, Blue told me that he's been here ever since that ony day everyone was scared I wouldn't make it through the night.

By the way, Felix is constantly staring at me through the window of the room Fenn made me stay in. When I wave hello to him, he smiles, turns and leaves. He used to have marks on his face, but he seems better now.

It's weird how he doesn't put a foot on my room. He just watches from afar, as if sccared something bad is gonna happen if he does. I asked Fenn why was Felix here. He frowned and asked me if he touched me or something. I said no and he smiled telling me to stay away from him.

Also, I lost you somewhere along the beating I think, so if you wonder how in the world I got you back.. Blue came in and said she found my bag. And let me tell you, I was relief to have you back.

"Cry" I gaze up and smile warmly at Hunter. Her belly was bigger now, showing the baby was healthy. I closed the diary and put it on the night table next to the bed. Hunter pushed a trolley and handed me the plate with a load of spaghetti.

"Thanks!" I said happily and dug in. Hunter sat and smiled at me "how many months?" I asked, sucking on the noddle.

"Four months" She said. I shook my head and gulped my food "You look like seven months!" She laughed but stopped. I arched a brow an stared.

"What happened?"

"Baby kicked"

I Aww'ed like a girl and dug into my spaghetti again. Hunter ruffled my hair and walked to the door "Cry, how are your legs feeling?" I arched a brow and finished destroying the noodles with my molars before giving her my answer.

"They don't hurt anymore"

"Do you think you can stand now?" I looked down at my legs and tried moving them. They lifted slightly but they felt too heavy to actually move.

"I'm not sure.. Why?" Hunter shook her head and smiled motherly before walking away. I shrugged and kept eating happily my heavenly food.

The wind entered my room. I looked at the window to find Felix sitting on the ledge, staring at the sky. I swirled my fork on the noodles and then brought it to my mouth. We stayed silent, me staring at him while I ate, and him just leaning on his raised knee as he stared up at the sky.

"Are you hungry?" I asked him after swallowing my mouthful of food. Felix turned his head and smiled shaking his head.

"I'm alright Cry" He stared at me, making me feel the need to touch him. I know he hurt me, but I still love him. It's soe thing I can't chose or fight over with myself.

"Felix, come here" He shook his head.

"I can't" he answered. I pouted

"I'll go to you then" I stated hoping he'd walk inside giving up but he dint even move an inch.

"No, you have to rest"

I put the bowl to a side and move the covers off of my legs. I drag them to the end of the bed and used the table as a supporter as I tried to stand. My legs trembled, after all I haven't used them more than three months.