More than Life Itself (an Ed Sheeran Imagine)

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TRIGGER WARNING: if depression, suicide, cutting, or depressed thoughts make you uncomfortable or scared in any way shape or form, do NOT read this chapter. You have been warned.
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Liza squeezed her eyes shut and rubbed the sleepiness out of them with the palms of her hands. She slowly sat up and tried to pat down her hair which was going in every direction. She sleepily trudged over to the bathroom to fix her hair, brush her teeth, and change out of her pajamas. She walked back into the bedroom and stopped. She turned her head and looked at her reflection in the mirror. She walked closer, frowning.
Ugly. Worthless. Stupid. No one likes you. Ed hates you. He's probably cheating. No friends. Broken. Die. Bitch. Lazy. Slob. Your nose is too big. Lips are too small. Face to narrow. Too thin. Everyone hates you. I hate you. You hate you. Hatehatehatehatehate.
Liza's snapped out of her trance. Her shoulders had been violently shook by Ed who was standing behind her.
"Liza!" He shouted, turning you around.
She looked up at him, tears cascading slowly down her cheeks. She hadn't noticed she was crying. She quickly turned away from Ed and hastily wiped her eyes dry.
"Liza..." Ed half whispered into her ear.
He turned her back around to face him.
She sniffled.
"What's wrong baby?" He said, his eyebrows furrowed together, and his lips pressed in a straight line.
"Nothing." Liza responded so quietly that Ed could barely hear her.
Her head was lowered as she stared at the floor.
"Elizabeth....." Ed said as he lifted her chin up so her eyes met his, "what's wrong?" He whispered worriedly.
The tears that had been welling up in Liza's eyes finally began to spill over as she squeezed her eyes shut and sobbed. Ed pulled her closer to his chest and stroked her head while she cried into him.
After a few minutes, she sniffled and wiped her eyes. Liza pulled herself away from Ed and latched her hand onto her arm and shrugged her shoulders. She cleared her throat, "I..........I just. I look in the mirror...." she paused to look up at Ed, "and I hate what I see."
Ed pulled away from her, his hands on her arms, and his mouth dropped open in shock. Liza stared up at his wide eyes and began to cry again.
"No no no baby," Ed said as he pulled her into him again, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. I was just.......caught off guard, Love."
Liza sniffled and looked up at Ed. He reached over to her and wiped his shirtsleeves under her eyes so that there were no tears left. He smiled sweetly,
"See, all better. What's wrong Love?"
Liza hugged him and dug her face into his chest,
"I hate everything about myself...."
Her voice was muffled by Ed's shirt.
"Love, you're going to have to look at me if you want me to be able to hear you." He said with a chuckle.
Liza pulled herself completely away from Ed and looked up at him.
"I hate myself so.......so much." She whispered.
Ed walked closer and grabbed her hands firmly in his.
"Elizabeth, how......?" He didn't know what to say.
Ed had no idea how someone as perfect as Liza could hate anything about herself.
Liza dropped her hands from his and pressed her arms to her sides.
"I hate how my hair is too thin, how-how my nose is too big, how my lips are too small, how I'm too thin, how my face is too narrow, how big my calves are, how I have a belly, how....." Liza drew in a breath as Ed grabbed her face and smashed his lips on hers. They stayed like this for a few seconds before Ed pulled away and quickly turned his back to her.
"Ed?" Liza began, about to touch his shoulder.
Ed spun around to meet her eyes and Liza cupped her hands over her mouth. He was a mess. His eyes were red and full of tears.
"Ed......" Liza gasped. "I'm so sorry." Tears began to fall down her face.
"No baby, don't cry." Ed said, wiping his eyes.
He pulled her into a hug.
"I just don't understand how you could hate anything about yourself. It pains me to know that's what you think.........you're the most kind, most beautiful, and one of the most talented people I've ever met. I......I don't know what to say but......I love you."
Liza could barely get the words out through her tears, "I love you too Teddy." She squeezed him tighter. She let go of him and turned around to look in the mirror. Ed sucked in a breath and it his lip as he waited.
"I guess you're right Teddy." Liza said turning back around.
He grabbed her arm and pulled her into himself as he kissed her head, "you're beautiful." He whispered into her hair.

So.....what'd ya think?! I spent a lot of time on this one and I'm sorry it's so short, but I hope you enjoyed! Welp be sure to vote and follow sheeriously.edits on Instagram! Love you all! Have a lovely day!
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