Flight Of Fancy

25. Noah

2 Months Later
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Will and I spent the last two months together. A lot happened during this time. Alex proposed to Rachel and she said no only to accept him when he asked her out the second time during the Christmas ball in front of the entire school.
I tried to develop my feelings for Will since Noah is not coming back ...... As far as I know.
And I think I succeeded. Will is a really nice guy. He has this amazing brown hair which have grown longer and can now be tied up in a ponytail. I bugged him for a long time askimg him to get a haircut. But he did not. And his eyes.... Ohh I can drown in them. My feelings for Noah have decreased. I suppose it was just an infatuation. It could have been love but I have not seen him for a long time and I don't know if my feeling are gone or they are hidden deep inside my heart.

Will gave me a pendant on my birthday. It was a crescent moon ....inside which was a small heart. There was a line engraved on the back from my favourite book....Pride and Prejudice. I guess best friends have some things in common. It read

You have bewitched me,
Body and soul.

Who wouldn't fall for something like this. It nearly took my breath away. I always wear it around my neck. It reminds me that someone out there loves me more than Romeo loved Juliet.
But what if I do not return his love ever. I mean I believe that I like him but what if my heart is still with Noah and I don't​ know it. I know its been a long time and I ought to move on. I ought to look at what is in front of me rather than crying for something that has long gone.

I will think about it all later. Right now I have to get ready for school. The weather has worsened over the past two months. There is a slight change in our routine. It is Will who I go to school with now seeing that my best friends are in a relationship and need some alone time.
I forgot to tell you. My birthday....it was the best birthday ever. All of my friends were with me and our tradition kind of broke. My friends could not surprise me daily with the amount of drama we had in our lives. But yeah.... They kind of worked night and day so that I could catch up on what I missed. They planned an outing for all of us. You would nit believe the place they took me to. It was London. For God's Sake it was London. The city of my dreams. I had always wanted to visit the land of the best architectural buildings in the world. It was amazing. Even if we spent only three days there but it was totally worth it. Will gave me my present in front of the Big Ben. Ohh I m just in love with the whole idea of being able to visit the city Jane Austen grew up in.
Ohh man I m seriously getting late. Will is probably waiting for me outside...... I better go.
I close the door behind me and there in front of me is Noah....dressed up as he was when he took me to the beach.
"Have you forgiven me, my love?"
"My love?? Are we in the eighteenth century or something?"
He chuckled and I recalled that I should not be making him laugh. He left me after declaring his love for me. And finally when I m moving on he decides to come back. No this can not be true.
"Noo .... I m sorry. I shouldn't have turned up like this. You probabaly hate me right now. If you tell me how you feel about me being here, I will understand and would leave until you can tolerate my presence"
"I hate you"
His face seems down with disappointment. He turns around to leave without uttering a single word. He is going to leave again. No I can not let him do this.
"You had no right of telling me that you love me and then leave me behind like nothing happened. I hate that I love you" my voice quivered. Its difficult to hold my tears back and now I can't anymore.
He turns around, now facing me
"I love you Ell, I do .....and I will continue loving you till my last breath"
"I love you too"
He leans and kisses me. You know how people say that you feel fireworks in your stomach when you kiss the person you love. I do not feel a thing. I m not even getting butterflies.
I get butterflies in my stomach when Will compliments me and with this guy I am not feeling​ a thing. I pull apart.
"I m sorry Noah..... I think what I felt for you has long been buried inside my heart. It has been so long that I don't think the feelings still exist. I m sorry, I don't love you and never will. What I felt for you was nothing but an infatuation. I love Will cause he never leaves me when I need him and I know that he will not break my heart ever. I should not have given you false hope but I wasn't sure of my feelings"
"Okay ...its okay"
He sighs and leaves. Pain clearly visible in his eyes. It does not feel good to hurt the person you once used to love. What am I saying....Not good can nkt describe how I feel.....I feel like crap.
I m sorry Noah , I really am.
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