My Head or My Heart?

Chapter 11

"yes?" I asked my voice coming out in a mix of a breathy moan and restraint. I really wanted to smack him for looking so damn good and me not being able to control myself.

"you forgot something else...." What my dignity? I thought giving a short breath as I forced myself to meet his eyes again.

"What else have I forgotten other than how to knock?" I joked shifting my feet from one foot to the next. The end of the shift was now starting to get to me. And of course, there he was standing as if he had all the time in the world and not a tired bone in his body. Lucky bastard... I thought jealously.

He got close to me again. I tried to not show that I was holding my breath a bit from his closeness. If I inhaled another minute of his cologne or the slight whiff of sweat that came natural from moving around a lot I was gonna come undone. That same little flash of something came into his eyes again highlighting the brown orbs of his irises. As I locked eyes with him, I saw flashes of golden rays throughout. It reminded me of the full bodied whiskey and cognac Luca and I enjoyed during a tasting event his job had a few years ago. That night just like right now I found myself beginning to get drunk and lost in the emotions that seemed to be flashing through his eyes. One minute I could see that all too familiar lust darkening them a bit and the next it would turn a bit brighter.

"Looking for something?" He asked in amusement. Damn his voice is so deep...Snap out of it girl! Your shift is ending. It's time to go home to your man! My brain was screaming at me as I reached down without him knowing and slowly began to pinch my arm through my lab coat.

I stuck my chin out defiantly, "yea apparently whatever it is that I forgot."

He smirked as he stepped even closer. Now we were almost chest to chest. I tried looking down to see my feet and surprise of course I would look down and see his crotch was close to mine. Either this man intentionally got a smaller size pants scrub or he got the newest iPhone. I thought as mental images started coming in my mind of what it looked like. I felt my clit begin to throb Oh shit! Nonononono....went my brain fumbling at the realization. I forced my eyes upward to see his now dark ones curiously watching me with an intensity I usually saw during his surgeries. I felt another throb go through me, this time a bit stronger and a little dampness hit my panties. SHIT! I mentally cursed.

I felt him press something into my hands. I looked down and gave a slightly dejected and confused look at seeing my notepad and pen there.

"I figured you would be wanting this being a nurse and all for your write ups." I took a deep steady breath as I continued to stare at the notepad not daring myself to even meet his eyes or crotch or any part of his body.

"well....lucky for you my shift is over."

I felt a smile grow on his face, "is it now?" his voice maintained its deep richness.

Another throb hit me, fuck! "yup. I gotta go home. My roommate is waiting for me." Roommate.....Jaya what the hell!! I cursed at myself, why the fuck did I not say boyfriend?

"roommate?" he looked confused.

fuck it, might as well run with it. "yup, he is very particular about us bringing new guests over unannounced." I rambled.

"and may I ask what made you choose a guy roommate over a girl?"

really?! "well you know..." I coughed, "he and I get along so well....and it all just made sense when he needed a place to stay. I just couldn't say no."

He eyed me for a second as I looked convincingly innocent to him. fuck fuck fuck! no more questions! I thought trying to find an out of this hole I was already starting to dig myself into. I dug into my jacket pocket and felt my pager. ok....I need something to get me out of this....I thought as I typed a test number and dialed it to my pager. When Saraj and I first started working together we learned that trick from an older nurse that was retiring. It was how she would get out of having to deal with the head nurse at the time Hannah, another mega bitch who thankfully transferred to another hospital after she got engaged to Rich, some start up investment banker from Long Island. Just like clockwork a few seconds later, my pager rang out. I purposefully got it out pretending to be surprised that it was ringing and looked at the number, "it's the morning relief. She must be wondering why I'm not down at the nurses station."