The weight of a loss

Chapter 5

After they ate, Martha knocked on the bedroom but didn't hear any answer so she went in. Kate was sleeping. She put the tray on Rick's commode, knelt down next to her and slowly caresses her hair to wake her up.
- "Katherine." She said "You have to eat"
- "I'm not hungry. Leave me alone"
- "Darling you won't feel stronger if you don't eat. You heard what the doctor said. If you don't eat you won't recovery fast."
Kate nodded. Martha helped her to sit on the bed. She gave her the plate and sat next to her. Kate wasn't hungry at all but she ate anyway because she knew Martha won't let her if she didn't.
- "I can't eat anymore Martha." She said pushing the plate away
- "Ok darling."
Martha left the bedroom. Kate went to take a bath. She hadn't had one since a long time and she needed it. When Rick came in the bedroom he didn't find her
- "Kate?"
- "I'm in the bathroom"
- "Hey" he said entering in the bathroom "Can I join you?"
- "Sure" she said.
He slides in the bath behind her and she rested against his chest.
- "You know I love you right?' he said, kissing her neck.
- "I know. I love you. So much." She said starting to cry.
- "Hey sweetheart. Don't cry."
- "I'm sorry... I just miss... him"
- "I know. I do too."
- "Aw Rick... I don't know what to do anymore"
- "Don't think about that. We will go through this. Day after day."
She only nodded, wiping away her tears. They stayed there a little more and then went to their bed. They were cuddling in their bed, Kate's head resting on Rick's chest. His hand on her hair. They fall asleep.

Later that night, Rick woke up. He tried to fell asleep again but he couldn't so he decided to go in the living room.
When Kate woke up a little later she didn't found Rick next to her. She stood up and walk to the living room where she found Rick laying on the couch.
- "Rick, what are you doing here?"
- "I couldn't sleep and didn't want to wake you up."
- "Oh ok. What's going on?" she asked
- "Nothing, don't worry."
But Kate knew there was something. She didn't know what exactly but she could read it in his eyes.
- "Babe, talk to me".
But he shook his head. She took his hand and went to their bed.
- "Rick, I know you. You think that as the man you have to be strong for me and you hide your feelings. But I know you more than you think. I know when something is wrong, I know when you hide something from me. So now stop being an idiot and talk to me." She said.
- "I just... I hate seeing you like that and not being able to do something to help. I wish I could wipe off your pain and what you've lived. I'm so sorry." He said putting his head in his hands
- "Rick. Come on. Don't be silly, it's not your fault. I'm fine."
- "No you're not! I know you try to make everybody think you are but you are not. And I don't want to see destroy yourself." He said straighten up.
- "Babe, calm down. You're going to wake up your mother and Alexis." She said taking him against her and lying in bed. "I'll be fine. Now let's go back to sleep".