A random book what I do when I update.. really?

My friend?

I've met my friends by accident over this app, I don't think I should've but I contacted my friend as someone anonymous and they still don't know it's me, we've talked and she had this idea that I was a guy? I didn't know what to say, I know I shouldn't have lied but I did, I went along with it

I'm in big shit because my friend wants to know who I am and if we live in the same country, I know we do, but my friend doesn't, what should I do

I feel like coming out would be too embarrassing

But not coming out would be stalking

I'm just going to have to take this to my grave and well anyone that reads this won't know the person I'm talking about because I'm not following them, they follow me but they dont ask me to follow in return

My friend says they enjoy my books but can she not see that I don't have the same perspective as a guy, I'm a girl and I always have been, I want to be boy though (maybe my self esteem will go up), my stories are female based and cliche, bullying, physical abuse, emotional abuse and all that shit

Why can't she see that I'm not the person she thinks I am?

Why aren't I brave enough to tell her?