A random book what I do when I update.. really?

I'm late but whatever

I was supposed to put up a Christmas special but shit. I missed that boat, or vacation cruise all around the world that cost me thousands.

I'm not used to this writer thing or just remembering to do anything, I literally left my device at my aunts place and couldn't update without it

So it is my fault and I only got it back the next morning, or this morning.

I shouldn't lie. I had my device all day yesterday, I just didn't think of it, so here it is, the day after Christmas special which has nothing to do with Christmas 

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Yeah so, anyone know why your family seem so shit when your my age, take a guess if you want but I'm not going to tell my exact age, or is I really just me?

But, everything seems so shit, about how my father may not live to see me graduate and I'm not joking, I'm sensitive to that dude, I don't look like it but I like to think my parents will be alive till I'm 30 

Apparently my sister got a talk with my father about a 2 year thing and, I don't know what to think, am I going crazy? Do I assume the worst or am I just overthinking it 

This was a month ago and I haven't been told shit.

My dad has this rare cancer and now there's nothing to do except do trials that will potentially speed or slow down the... whatever 

Anyway, my mom.

I don't know what she will do after him, I don't want her to remarry, I hate the idea of it, I absolutely repulse the idea of it but there just joking about a boyfriend and how my little cousin stares at him because he's closer to heaven 

I didn't want to think of it and I didn't want to really try to process it, I almost cried at the thought of it but there's always hope 

Anyway my dad's birthday is coming up soon, we never really celebrate but I want to get him a present but I dont know what to get 

I'll keep thinking but until then, I guess I need to start saving up money.