A random book what I do when I update.. really?

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Many... many months have passed... my sister had moved out finally, some police came after some abuse my father and sister had and they sent her away, she's living with her teacher in the city or something and I can't say I'm not happy, I'm fucking ecstatic about this

I've finally found out why she's so crazy.... it's just because she's an asshole to anyone she's known her whole life. No sense for consequences and no sense for what she's gonna do when she's older, she has no sense of right and is acting like a victim. An entitled brat. 

Moving onwards, my friends. After a few months of bonding I've somwhat gotten through and had some really good days but the bad days are increasing steadily. 

It's just been stacking up... another after another. I don't know what to do? I've had many more doubts than I've had before, I genuinly want to return back to the shadows where I had zero friends, the ones I have now... I feel like they don't want to talk to me... which is somewhat understandable but if your gonna act like I don't exist don't even bother talking to me in the first place. 

I don't want to tell them because I sound like I'm a victim but shit it hurts.... ever tried not ignoring someone? She just stood there on her phone and decided to go to her other group of friends??? 

I like you.... a WHOLE FUCKING LOT and your ignoring me? I can't say it feels good, I mean I get it, the other group u have, they are nice and gr8 and they r ur friends, I understand that very well but it still hurts. 

When u suddenly decide to leave and talk to them, when you decide to suddenly shout their name and walk towards them, when you suddenly leave, when you bring them over and unite me? Like shit I thought this friendship was mutual 

(I confessed and it turns out they like me too but they aren't dating right now which I understand, we are two gays who like eachother) 

I get overly jealous sometimes, my friend was talking to this other girl and... "am I really that disposable?" 

Like damn I didn't realise I meant so little thanks

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I have a bunch more other shit to spew but I have something else to do... on another note, I have two friends or more like one, I talk to them about my problems but it's hard to get their view on it when it's over text.

Okay byeee