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Crushes

So you know how I am very gay and have a gay crush right.....

Well I have this girl who I really fuckinf like, so much but all she knows is that I like someone and it's a girl.

I was going to tell her who it is and secretly confess but she said she didn't want to know and I low key felt rejected even though she doesn't know 

This girl.... named Ezra is very adorable and soft, I've liked other girls the same but they are straight.

Okay so here is the thing, I made it this big deal that I like her but I don't like her as much as my last gay crush and she was straight and I stood no chance. 

My last crush..., was different, they are different from others but so is Ezra but I feel like the other one is.... better? In a sense I can relate more but I believe that with time comes more comfortableness.

My heart hurts, for a weird unknown reason and I don't know why, god I wish something or someone would just slap me and I would know what to do.

It's the second girl I've ever liked and I'm so confused.