Shawn Mendes Imagines

#45 cheating

A/N:  Requested by @@Mirandakay02,thank you honey, hope you like this!!

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Today was my first day back at school. It was alright but I felt horrible. I tend to have the worst stomache cramps in school which is weird but I cant help it and it sucks 

You sighed deeply as you turned off the tv to finally head up to bed. You thought you'd stay up until Shawn came back home so you had curled up on the couch with some blankets and a hot cocoa. But it was now 3am and he still wasn't by your side again. Groaning you went up the stairs to your shared bedroom. You were getting sick of this. Or the past couple weeks he had been going out. You didn't mind he was going out without you, you weren't the typical party girl and enjoyed some time on your own but you started to miss your boyfriend as he wouldn't stop leaving each and every single night and wouldn't come home before the early morning hours. You honestly couldn't even say whether you were mad at him or just upset. 

Anyway, tonight you were angry. He had promised to come home at least until 1am but he broke his promise. As you changed into your pjs and curled up in your bed you were furious. How could he do this to you? You tried to fall asleep but you couldn't help it. Your mind was wondering off to Shawn and to what he might be doing right now. At first you simply imagined him drinking and dancing at the cub with his friends but as time passed by a girl made its way into your imagination and you couldn't stop thinking about him making out with several other girls who were potentially be hitting on him in the club. You balled your hand into fists. 

There was no way you were able to fall asleep now. Instead you decided to stay up until Shawn would be home again and confront him about your thought and your anger. You starred at the ceiling for who knew how long until you eventually heard footsteps coming up the stairs and the bedroom door cracking open. You sat up in bed as Shawns tall figure made its way into the room. As he saw you he stood still "babe why are you still up?" The sight of him let all your anger suddenly wash away and instead you had tears welling up in your eyes. You couldnt stand your thoughts any longer, you just had to know. "Are you cheating on me?" You blurted out. 

He froze. "What?" he asked in disbelief. "Are you cheating on me?" you repeated, trying to sound as strong as possible. "Why would you think that?" Shawns voice seemed so cold and so distant. You gulped. "You've been out legit every night for the past weeks. You're not coming home until really early in the morning. And even though yesterday you promised me to come back a bit earlier so we could at least watch one episode of stranger things together you stood me up and stayed at the club to do who knows what." You breathed out heavily. Finally you had spilled your guts. Now it was silent, only the moonlight shining into the bedroom slightly illuminating your figures. You couldn't really see Shawns expression, only his hands running through his hair. Suddenly he straightened up. He looked huge from your spot on the bed. 

"I can't believe this" he breathed out. "Just because I have some fun without you doesn't mean I'm cheating on you." Hs voice was calm but you could almost hear is jaw clenching as he was trying to contain himself. "But you know what? If this is how much you trust me I think I'm done with this." He referred between the two of you. "I thought we loved each other and trusted each other but when it only needs me to be out and about for a bit for you to think I'm fucking cheating on you, well then I don't see a reason we should carry this on any longer." With that he stormed out of the room. The only thing you heard was the front door clicking when he slammed it shut behind him. 

You couldn't move. There were no tears streaming down your face, no thought running through your head. You felt num. It was like everything that had kept you alive had been leaving your apartment the second Shawn exited.

The next morning you felt an aching pain in your neck as you woke up. You must have fallen asleep in a really weird position after simply sitting on your bed and starring into space. You didn't really care though, at least the pain reminded you that you were actually still alive. Slowly you crawled out of bed and went downstairs to make yourself a cup of tea. You sat down on the couch, tarring out of the huge window. Shawn had left. He broke up with you. 

But could this really be it. You had been so happy. The past year you had spent together was the best one of your life. And you knew he had felt this way too. Well at least until you had accused him of cheating. You felt terrible for what you had done. 

Suddenly you felt the couch give in next to you. In shock you turned around. Shawn was sitting down a couple inches away from you, his head buried in his hands. "I'm so sorry" he whispered. You could barely hear him as he was muffling into his hands. "I totally overreacted. I shouldn't have been this angry. You had every right to say the things you said. I should have just explained to you that I couldn't never cheat on you because I love you way too much to hurt you like that. Plus O don't ever want to lose you. But I think I fucked up after last night, didn't I?" He carefully looked up t you. You starred back at him, not really knowing what to say. After seeing him like that last night you would have never thought he'd come back and apologize to you. You scooped over to him and placed your hand on his back, gently rubbing small circles on his grey sweater. 

"You didn't. And I have to apologize too. I'm sorry I didn't trust you and thought you may be cheating on me. I should have known better. But I love you so much and the thought of losing you to someone else made me go crazy. Forgive me?" Within a second you felt warm lips being crushed onto yours.

 "How could I not?" Shawn breathed against your lips after breaking the kiss. "And I promise to never come home this late again." You smiled against his lips as you pressed yours onto his once again. Sometimes only fighting could help someone realise how much they really needed the other one. Shawn certainly did. He did not leave your side for the next who knew how many weeks, if not months. And not only did you finish the second season of stranger things during all those nights spend together.