Today's topic is about a new thing—a feeling to be specific—that I'm going through, and I still don't have a reason for such feeling. Today's topic is "Doubt". We all have moments when we doubt in things and ourselves, too. But today's focus is on doubting ourselves, concepts, and beliefs.
Normally, I don't have a lot of self-doubt moments in my life because I believe in my own ideas and concepts that I'm living by. Infact, I'm living for them because without those ideas and concepts, I'll be no one. I'll be shallow and aimless in my life, and Who would like to feel shallow or aimless? None. Yesterday wasn't a good day for me, which leads to over-thinking issue that changed, as fast as I could ever imagine, into a self-doubting about the ideas that I'm living by. I found myself questioning my own thoughts and ideas that went like this: a) Do I really believe in freedom? b) Am I free? Or Is it an illusion? c) Am I practicing what I'm believing in? d) Do I try so hard in something that's not there?.....etc.
To be honest, I was shocked with what my brain came up with. How can a fraction of a second makes me lose all my hopes and things that I took years to build. But quickly I found myself shaking off those unwanted/undesired thoughts; instead, I started to remind myself to think positively as much as I can. Finally, I succeed in turning this moment into a slightly better one. But still, I'm in an awe!
I don't know if I'm the only one who experienced such a thing, or lots of people have experienced this moment before. The point here is: as much as you think that your brain is your closest friend/backbone, it can change into a killer machine.
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