My Weekly Life (Complete)

PROVING

Today's post is about something that I always wanted to remind myself of, which is "Proving". Although we don't have to prove anything we do, yet there are some things that need proof. The necessity of proving is not for the people or anyone in general, it's for yourself. Proving to yourself that you can do/make something is the biggest accomplish (aka the biggest/important proof that you were here living your life).

Some may measure their existence by the amount of people they knew, the money they made and the things they accomplished in life. Don't get me wrong here because it doesn't have to be a physical/big thing/s to prove that you lived your life to the max, but small things, details and emotions are also a simple but effective way to leave your mark in this world since everything counts. Trying, failing, caring and succeeding count.

Proving is not only about living your mark after death but also while living, try to prove to yourself that you can do what you wanted to do. There's nothing wrong to prove to people and wow them by your accomplish—specially, if they told you that you will never reach this goal or whatever—and succession, but always remember that you did this for yourself and yourself only. This is not a call for selfishness, but it's a call for awareness that you and only you who can make impossible things possible. You and only you who can amaze yourself by your power and strength.

I remember when I was young, I really wanted to do anything to show people that I'm capable enough to do everything. I wanted to show that I'm not a lazy ass who just consume and don't plan for the future. In fact, I wanted to bring out the best of me to prove to the people, who knock me down, that I CAN and I WILL. But I have never realized that I'm doing whatever I did to show myself FIRST rather than showing them.

I remember, back to school days, the first time I got an A and how my old (aka friends), who left school, reacted. It went something like this: 15+ messages asking how I did it, 5+ post congrats from my REAL friends and 10+ saying that this is ridicules because a) I'm lying b) if that is real, then I cheated. Still the amount of happiness I got afterwards worth how I F**ked myself till I own it. It was just like Queen Bee's verse from 'Formation' "I dream it, I work hard, I grind 'til I own it."

I'm not sharing this to show you 'OMG! How amazing I am!' NO!! I'm sharing this in order to remind you that proving to yourself is the best way to honor yourself whether it's a degree, act of kindness/caring, a help , or being there for who truly needs you. The point of this post is to prove to yourself that you can be a better version of yourself for yourself before the people.