Magcon Imagines ♥

Aaron Carpenter Imagine

I truly love Aaron. But it's hard to love when you know things aren't right. When you can't trust each other enough to go out into public alone. When you can tell something isn't right, at a specific time, each day. When you get that weird pang in your chest when you know you want to be with the one you love, but you know you can't because it hurts both of you. It's not fair that us people can feel when things are wrong, or when things feel so right it's wrong. Like Aaron and I. We have a love-hate relationship. One moment its fine, then a few hours after he leaves, you feel that odd pain in your chest. Somethings not right. But I can't stop it from happening. I want him to be happy. But how could a person he happy if they know their doing something wrong? When they know it's going to hurt the other person a ton, but still do it anyway. It's not right for me to do the same to him. I can't take the pain anymore. Why would I do this to him? Why would he do this to me? We might not ever know why we do this to each other. It's certainly not something we are comfortable with. We are playing each other like puppets. I'm making him feel pain by cheating. He's making me feel pain by cheating. Yet neither of us can get the guts to say, "Hey, we really need to talk about what's going on."

Neither of us want to talk to each other. I want to be okay inside. I want him to be fine inside.

Can we fight for each others love and win? Or will our secret hate for each other tear us apart? Are we going to be the ship people thought would never sink?