Shawn Mendes Imagines {COMPLETED}

20. Insecure

I looked at myself in the mirror, not liking what I saw. I saw a girl that didn't have a flat stomach. I saw a girl with a chubby face. I saw a girl with big thighs. Shawn always said that I was beautiful and gorgeous but I didn't believe those words.

    "Honey? Where are you?" Shawn called out. I was upstairs in our en suite, he must have just gotten home from the studio.

    "I'm upstairs." I yelled back. I soon heard his footsteps and saw his smiling face which soon faded away.

    "What's wrong?" He asked. Damn. He knows me too well. I quickly reassured him that I was fine.

    "I don't believe you." He admitted.

    "Really Shawn, I'm fine. Can we just drop it please?" I asked as I walked out of our room and walked downstairs. He followed close behind me.

    "No. We can't just drop it Y/n. I want to know why I came home to my girlfriend looking like she had just been crying. What's going on?" He gently grabbed my wrist so I couldn't get away again.

    "Fine. I hate the way I look, okay? I hate the fact that my stomach isn't flat, I hate the fact that my face is chubby, I hate that my thighs are big, I hate the fact that I'm ugly." I blurted out. He had a pained expression on his face as I saw him tear up.

    "You really think that about yourself?" he asked. I nodded in response. "Baby you are the most gorgeous and beautiful being that I have ever met and I know that no one gets better than you. So what if you don't have a flat stomach? I love your stomach. There's more of you to love and it only adds to your beauty. So what if you don't have a thin face? I'll kill two birds with one stone, because you may not have a thin face but it's a gorgeous face that I love to stare at, which you probably find creepy at times." I nodded and laughed as Shawn wiped away tears that had fallen down onto my face. "And beautiful, your thighs are perfect. I love them. Who cares about stretch marks? I love each and every mark that's on your body. Baby I love you and you are so gorgeous. You may not believe it but that's why I'm here, to make sure that you can believe it someday. I love you and every part of you."

    By now the tears were free falling down my face as I smiled at him. "I love you too Shawn. So much. Thank you honey." I kissed him and made sure that he could feel the love and passion through the kiss.

    "Anything for my darling. I'll move mountains for you." He said with a smile on his face after pulling away from our kiss.