Shawn Mendes Imagines {COMPLETED}

91. Burden

 I was in the living room of the house that I share with my boyfriend Shawn. He was in the family room which is on the other side of the house, but if someone were to talk loud enough, we would be able to hear each other. Shawn was on the phone with someone and I was reading a book. I wasn't listening to the conversation until I heard Shawn say my name.

"Yeah Y/n can be a real burden sometimes. She's always getting so anxious and down and depressed. Plus, she clings onto me all of the time." Shawn said. He obviously didn't mean for me to hear it, but I did, and it really hurt. I grabbed my phone, book, and water and went upstairs to our bedroom. I layed on the bed and cried myself to sleep. I woke up two hours later when I suddenly became hungry. I didn't want to go downstairs because I might have to face Shawn, but I needed food. "Hi babe." Shawn said with a smile on his face when he saw me downstairs.

"Hi." I mumbled. If he didn't want me to "cling" onto him, I would just leave him alone.

"Are you okay?" Shawn asked.

"Yup." I said. Obviously it was a lie.

"Are you sure?" Shawn asked.

"Yes Shawn. I'm going to eat upstairs. I'm tired." I lied. Shawn had a frown on his face but he must have decided to drop the concern because he just nodded and let me do my thing. I got my food and went back upstairs, where I stayed for the rest of the night. When Shawn came to bed, I was already asleep because I had cried myself to sleep again. I wondered if he saw the dried tears on my face.

The next morning I woke up to Shawn kissing my neck.

"Shawn I'm not in the mood for sex right now." I said, and it wasn't a lie.

"Are you sure?" Shawn asked.

"Yes. I have to get ready for school." I said and practically pushed him off me. He looked slightly hurt and for a second I almost felt bad, but then I remembered what he said. I got ready for school and drove myself there. Sometimes Shawn drives me, but I decided not to be a burden, and drove myself. Shawn was working when I got home from school. He came over to me to give me a kiss but I turned my head at the last second so he would be kissing my cheek.

"Are you okay?" Shawn asked.

"I'm fine Shawn." I said. I was still upset about what he said, and it didn't help that I had had a rough day at school.

"Okay..." Shawn said hesitantly. Instead of doing homework at the table like I usually do, I did it in our bedroom, away from Shawn. Once I finished my homework I picked up my book to read but I had a hard time focusing. The words that Shawn said were swirling around in my brain. Shawn eventually came into the room to take a nap.

"I'm going to read downstairs if you're going to take a nap." I said, making up an excuse. Usually I would nap with him, but I didn't feel like doing that right now.

"Are you sure? I'll hold you." Shawn asked.

"No I'm just going to go read. I really like this book." I said. That part wasn't a lie. The book was really good, but I still needed to get away from Shawn. Things continued like this for the next couple of days. I drove myself to school no matter how many times Shawn insisted, and whenever he came into the room, I would either make up an excuse to leave the room or we would talk the bare minimum amount.

Shawn's perspective

I don't know what's going on with my girlfriend Y/n. Whenever I come into the room, she says something that excuses her so she can leave the room, or we speak the bare minimum. She won't let me drive her to school like I sometimes do. I don't know what I did, but I must have done something to upset her. I decided to go over to her mom's house and talk to her. See if she could end up talking to Y/n and see what's going on. I drove over and parked in the driveway. I went to the door and knocked, even though Y/m/n said that I didn't have to. Her mom opened the door.