Shawn Mendes Imagines {COMPLETED}

62. Drifting

Shawn had been working hard on SM3 and as proud of him as I was, I had barely seen my boyfriend. Plus, he was more likely than not overworking himself, pushing himself harder and harder, and I hoped he would realize when he needed to stop, and listened to his body. But, I would wake up alone and go to bed alone. Shawn always came home at some point, but I just never saw him, and what with my schedule being filled with work and school, that didn't make anything easier.

    I was frustrated with Shawn though. He knew that I struggled to fall asleep without him, and more than that, he wasn't making time with me. Every free chance I had, if I wasn't at school or I wasn't at work, or I wasn't doing homework, I stayed home, hoping that he would come home to me, make some time for me. Instead, he didn't. I'm not trying to be selfish, but I love my boyfriend, and lately I just feel like we've been drifting apart. I don't want us to end. I can't lose him. He's the love of my life. He told me that he would marry me someday.

    I sat on the couch watching Supernatural in the house that Shawn and I bought together. We've made so many memories in this house and I love it. I hoped that we would always come home to it, together, but with the way things have been lately, I was feeling scared. I was soon startled by the sound of keys in the door. The front door opened to reveal Shawn. I felt shocked.

    "Hey hun." Shawn said.

    "Hi." I responded.

    "What's wrong?" Shawn asked.

    "What are you talking about? Nothing's wrong." I said.

    "Honey, I can read you like an open book and you have dried tears on your face. What's going on?" He asked me.

    "Nothing Shawn." I said, not wanting to tell him what had me so upset. I didn't want him to think that I was being selfish.

    "Baby please. I can't fix whatever is wrong unless you tell me." Shawn said. Tears brimmed my eyes.

    "I never see you anymore." I whispered.

    "What are you talking about?" Shawn asked me.

    "I literally have not seen you in a week Shawn. I go to bed alone, and I wake up alone. I go to work, I go to school, I do my homework, and I wait for you to come home, but you don't. Not when I'm awake or at home. I don't mean to be selfish but I just feel like you never make any time for me anymore. I feel like we're drifting apart. I don't want us to end Shawn." I said. Finally. I was finally able to get it all off my chest.

    "And I don't want us to end either Y/n. I didn't mean to make you feel like this at all my beautiful girl. I've just been so busy with the album-"

    "And I understand that you've been busy with the album, but you're more than likely overworking yourself Shawn and you haven't even made time for yourself let alone anyone else." I said, cutting him off.

    "Okay. I'll make more time for you. I promise. I won't push myself as hard, I just really want this album to be perfect." He said.

    "Thank you honey. Babe, it will be perfect, you just have to trust yourself and listen to your body." I said.

    "Okay Y/n. I love you." Shawn said. He barely let me respond before he planted his lips on mine. This was our first kiss in a week. It felt so good, just like always.

    "I love you too baby." I said.