Love Moves

Kabanata 37

Kabanata 37

Fall

I'm over thinking right now, contemplating kung tama ba ang pagpapanggap na gagawin namin. Jessica is such a nice girl, she's determined to help her family especially her mom who are sick. Napapayag ko siya sa lahat ng ito because of her mom and I feel something unusual. Thinking my family, well I never been in her situation anyway kaya siguro ay hindi ko ito naiintindihan.

Inisip ko na lamang that she agreed because of my money, ganoon naman talaga. Money can buy anything, right? Well maybe on Jessica's case, kailangan niya lang talaga ng pera to save her love one. Kaya siguro ganoon din kalaki ang tiwala ko dito. And yes, I agreed to this that she can used me, I mean my money because naniniwala akong maganda naman ang layunin nito.

Now I should be careful, kung mahuli kami sa pagpapanggap na magkasintahan I know my mom won't ever forgive me and she can bring trouble with Jessica. I know she's supportive over me but sometimes I just feel soffucated. I'm a man now and my mom should trust me on my own decision. Mabilis akong kumilos at bumalik sa aking table, sitting on my swivel chair and facing now my laptop, naisip ko that I should make a contract between me and Jessica.

I am so engrossed typing, pakiramdam ko all the idea just coming through my head. Walang palya, dire-diretso na para bang alam na alam ko ang lahat ng ito.  

As a contract mas iniisip ko that it should be like a rules and regalations for our relationship to work, at habang pinagmamasdan ang gawa ko ay nangingiti na lamang ako. I don't even know why I'm so excited on writing this up. It's like I'm giving a lecturesor lessons on how our relationship will last long. Damn, mukhang nasisiraan na ata talaga ako ng ulo. Ganito ba ako kadidicated for this act.

When I finished, I hurriedly printed it out. Kagat labi akong napatingin na sa papel na aking hawak. Malakas ko itong binasa ng walang pag-aalinlangan.

I Jessica Ramos 20 years of age will solemnly swear to Bryan Ledesma of the following:

1. Be proud on his boyfriend.

Show everyone how proud you are as my girlfriend.

2. No cheating with other boys.

Not allowed talking and dating other boys.

3. No secrets and lies.

All problems should be directed at me even personal. I want an honest relationship.

4. One calls away.

Always be available when I need you and always on time.

5. No excuses.

As my girlfriend no excuses for unattended calls or meeting.

6. I'm the first priority.

The first priority on your list everytime.

7. Will listen and follow my boyfriends order.

Should be a very good and obedient girlfriend.

8. Secrets are only between the two of us.

Not allowed to share everyone about our secrets.

9. Be beautiful and sexy when I'm around.

Must be presentable and classy girlfriend.

10. Will fight for me no matter what.

Need to be strong facing hardship on our relationship, especially with my mom.

Isang malalim na paghinga ang ginawa ko at napagpasyahan na wala na nga akong babaguhin dito. And if ever Jessica question me or refused on this, well dapat ako pa din ang masusunod.