Formula one shots [Requests Closed]

Esteban Ocon - You broke my heart

This one is for @icxxee it's a special one, but I really would like to write it. I hope you will like it. Thank you ❤️

You wake up suddenly out of breath as usual, those nightmare are still here even he is died... You saw his face, every facial features and you can even remember the smell of his fragrance. But it's not the worst thing, you can remember the way his hands caress you skin and those words he used to say don't be shy little girl, and remember if you scream that will be worse.
Day after day you are building your world with a heavy weight, because no one knows... You kept that hard secret your entire life : your step father rapped you. That was difficult at the beginning that's still difficult, if in the past years the deep wounds lies now it's worst. Why ? Because you had the loveliest and the most attentive boyfriend : Esteban. Why it's a problem ? Because you never had a real relationship and when Esteban caress slowly your back, when he delicately kissed your lips and when he slipped his hand under your shirt your burned inside.

You heart is screaming let him love you, he does it incredibly well. At the same time your brain remembered every part of your skin which was already touched by someone else, you felt dirty and you can't just focus on your relationship. Memories are still here and they always be... You woke up this morning with your heart beating as fast as Esteban's Force India in straight lines 'Nightmare sweetheart ?' Esteban asked you running his hand through your hair, your forehead is wet you were sweating. Trying to avoid negatives memories and just appreciate the moment you nodded and you were getting closer to him. 'You can tell me everything you know, you can trust me, I can't bear to see you crying and suffocating all nights love.' he said with his half asleep voice.

You took a deep breath and you heard two distinct voices in your head the first one can't stop screaming shut up, he don't deserve to know. And the second one is softer and inspires confidence it mumbled you can trust him, he's you boyfriend since 6 month now, if you wanted to go further just believe him. He loves you. Tears fall on your face and when Esteban noticed that you started 'I have something to tell you. It's my biggest secret, it's not easy but you deserve to know...' Esteban looked a you with a questioning face but as you expected he listened carefully your long and terrible story... 30 minutes later, after lot of tears, sob and kisses Esteban eyes are wet and his hands are shaking like yours. 'I can't realize Y/N.. You can trust me, I will never hurt you. I love you so much...'

If Esteban was already an awesome boyfriend he is so much more than that since you explained you past. You said that you don't want to talk about that anymore, and he respected your choice. You feel a little better now and your nights are now calmer than they used to. This afternoon you will meet some of Esteban friends, his bests friends. Esteban said that you and Alice (Esteban best friend 🙄) are exactly the same but you have something more and that's why he loves you so much. And actually he was right all the afternoon you spoke to his friend and you laughed a lot ! 'That's incredible ! You and Esteban it's been 7 month no ?' Alice asked you smiling. 'Yeah exactly.' You answered and your lips curved. 'Yeah, but Esteban is an asshole ! Because he could introduce us since the beginning, he doesn't want to share.' She said proudly and you laughed again because you are agree with her.
'Actually he didn't talked too much about his relationship or only when he needs help.. like the time you told him...' you eyebrows as she told you that and your heart is now in crumbs.. it was a secret. 'Oh I am sorry Y/N you probably don't want to speak about that I am so sorry.' You hands are shaking and you can't find the right words 'No no, it's not your fault it's okay. Sorry I need some fresh air, don't be mad it's not your fault it's just...' and you left the room. You go outside the fresh air of December refresh your mind but you can't stop crying, five minutes after you heard the door behind you. You should walked you thought... 'Y/N ? What's wrong, she explained me..'

You looked at Esteban right in the eyes 'That was between you and me Esteban. You broke my heart. I trusted you, you betrayed me.' You said between many sobs. Esteban looked upset and breathless he took a step to you and began 'I need to speak to someone, I didn't know how to react. I was lost and she helped me, I am so sorry. But trust me I love you more than everything, please I need your forgiveness Y/N'

You wanted to trust him and go over it, but it's too hard unfortunately... you need a total trust and that's broken. You cried at theses thoughts, because you can't deal with that, you wanted to trust him, to love him but you're too weak. Esteban noticed your distress, he is hurt too.
You were frozen and you couldn't move, Esteban slowly walked towards you and behind your back he wrapped his arm around your waist. He placed his head on your shoulder, kissed your cheek and you felt the warmth of his mouth. You smelled his perfume, appreciate his body against yours and you realized that you only want this man by your side. A relationship have to grow, it's a huge step but together you will be able to fight against the entire world, against the demons of your past.