Formula one shots [Requests Closed]

[Max Verstappen] - You can tell yourself, but I know how we both really feel

It's the first time since you and Max broke up you come back at a race. Afterall, you love formula one, you love that smell of gasoline, you love that engine loud noise and the tyres screech on the racetrack. When you were young, your one and only dream was to be a formula one pilot. Your parents taught you how to love that sport, they both worked for Redbull, actually they met in the factory at their first day. You dad was head of mechanic and your mum was an aerodynamic engineer. Now they don't work for the team anymore, but they have formula one in their heart, in their blood. They have to follow the team, especially this year because you're not a formula one driver but you are a Porsche driver.

Unfortunaltely you broke your arm two month ago, and your not able to drive at the end of the championship. Today it's the first race of the season, you're really happy and upset at the same time. You just can't wait to drive but at the same time, you know it... He will be here, him and probably his new perfect girlfriend.

You dated Max during about 5 month, at the end of the championship. He was the kindest boyfriend ever and you two shared that love for cars. One day he wanted to talk, he said that he didn't want to loose you but he had to stay focus on formula one, especially on race week. You hardly unterstood, but you nodded without a word. Your heart was broken and just after you felt tears on your face, yes you loved him, and you still do.

During the break you thought about him, especially when you see that picture of him and a perfect women by his side. It's clearly not a girl like you, it's clearly the perfect cliché of the most beautiful girl in the world, you know ? That instagram or tumblr girl, not a girl who drives car. You were hurt when you saw this, because you thought of his stupid excuse few month ago. Then you saw your car and during a couple of minutes you didn't think about him, you think about how this season will be wonderful. You just can't wait to drive...

'Y/N ! Someone is here for you!' Your engineer said at the end of your discussion with one of your mechanic. You look behind him and you saw Max, the one and only. His deep blue eyes, his confused smile and his way of biting his lips when he caught your look, you didn't forgot that look. Max took a step to you and your heart started to beat faster, inside you clearly know what you wanted to say, but finally you just said 'Hey you'.

'I am glad to see you again... on the track I mean' he said while he played with his fingers, that thing he did when he was anxious, like before an important race.
'I wish I could say the same.' You whispered.
Max frowned a little and placed his hand on your arm, you remembered the feeling of his hands on your body, the warmth of his hand on your waist and the taste of his lips against yours, you bite your lower lip when he announced 'Y/N, can we talk ?'

You just nodded and followed him through the garage, you still love him, deeply and you can't deny it. Max placed his hand on your back and he is now closer than ever theses last month.
'What do you want ?' You almost yelled when you were outside.

Max took a deep breath and started 'Y/N, I am sorry.' You laughed and replied 'That's nice. Apologize accepted, can I leave now ?'
Max eyes were darker, you saw his neck vein like when he said few month ago that was over. You closed your eyes and waited his answer. He didn't say a word so you continued 'I just want to have a nice week end and enjoy my race, I don't want to be upset or sad or heart broken. I am sure you know what I mean Max, so now just let me go please'.

You left him in the middle of the paddock and get back to the garage, you eyes were wet and that was like your heart was is million pieces one more time. You expected apologies first and so much more.. you wanted him back, you wanted a soft kiss and his whispered, you wanted your Max by your side but he's definitely not yours anymore.

'Y/N !' You heard behind you.
'Go away please, my first preoccupation is racing. I don't want to waste my time with relationships.' You said thinking about his words he said.
'You can tell yourself but you know how we both really feel.' Max almost moaned.

You shivered and was unable to add anything so Max continued more clearly this time. 'I made a mistake, can we fix it ?' He said. You shook your head and added 'A mistake ? Really Max ? I thought we were happy together, I thought we can build something strong, I thought we were the strongest couple ever, I thought so much more than that. We can't fix it, you have a girlfriend, a lovely one by the way. She is so different as me, if that girl is the one you want so just go. You broke my heart once, not twice. I loved you, and I still do but...'  you said without breathing.

You were breathless especially when he wrap his arms around you and he nested his head on your neck. You felt his breath against your skin and immediately you replied to his ambrace and hold him stronger. You just wanted to yelled at everyone that you loved him, and then Max sank his eyes into yours. You looked at his lips and the only thing you wanted was to kiss him, now. 

'I am not with her anymore, I just realized that I didn't love her few weeks before that race. I knew that I will see you here, I knew that I was still in love. I was scared, I thought that I will not be able to reconcile racing and you. But... Can we try ?' 

You nodded and smiled, He smiled back and he seemed to be releaved. Max gently kissed you, first in a soft way and then with more and more passion, you alsmost forgot it... 

'I missed you babe' Max mumbled.... 

I said that I had no time but... I could write this little one :) I hope you liked it ♥