Formula one shots [Requests Closed]

Kimi Raikkonen - I just came to say goodbye

This one was for sebi-vettel , I hope you will like it. I will write your second request after the other one I had, I hope it's ok with you :) Thank you a lot !

Your hand is shaking, you are standing in front of his door. Even if you always have a bit of a knot in your stomach you have to tell him goodbye properly. You knock at his door and took a deep breath, Kimi opened the door slowly looked at you and added 'why are you here ? I will be quite frank about the Matter Y/N. It's difficult enough'.

Outspoken, blunt and tactless that how the ice man is and you perfectly know that. You know that because that's why you loved him and why you will always love him... 'I just came to say goodbye Kimi' you said quickly, a slight smile appeared on Kimi's face and he replied 'To me Y/N you already said goodbye when you broke up'. 'I didn't break up with you Kimi' you continued, you are still in front of his house door because he didn't let you in. Kimi shook his head and laughed nervously 'No of course you don't, you just said sorry babe but I don't want to follow you everywhere, my friends are most important, my personnal life too. After one year of relationship I am not ready, but I love you don't worry. Please stop kidding me, just go Y/N'

You felt tears ran down your cheek, you were very mean towards him and you just realized that... You shouldn't use so hard words but you thought that was the easiest way. You loved Kimi more than everything but you're younger and you're frightened... People often hesitate to commit themselves, and that's exactly your case... You're only 25, Kimi is older and he wants more. You're not ready for this, that's why when he asked you to come with him next year you said no...

'Can we talk please, it's really hard for me.' you said without crossed his eyes, you don't want more tears and you are already suffocating. 'I am suffering Y/N, can you understand that ? If you don't want to follow me and live your own life just go. Can you understand that traveling is my job ? Dating a formula one driver it's not a easy thing I am ok with that, but you should thought about it'. Kimi replied, he didn't use to speak a lot, except when he is upset and today that it's the case. 'Please Kimi, I need to explain you something'.

Kimi took a step back and opened the door, you came in his house. The place is famillair to you, you spend all you free time between race week end here with him, you feel really good in that house, or do you feel really good because you were with him ? Kimi walk in the kitchen and grab his cup of coffee 'Do you want one ?' he asked, you shook your hand when you saw the face of your finnish boyfriend... Or ex boyfriend due to your fault.

he looked at you bloodfaced and said ''So keep going, what do you want to say ?' now you are here and it's for a reason. You don't want to come with him, but you want to say how much you love him and you can't follow him right now..

You took a step towards him and said 'Kimi, you know that I am still in love with you. I truly love you, but choose this life is a hard choice to me. I am so scared, if I follow you and if that doesn't work and we broke up. After that I will be alone, and that's why like we did last year was great ...'

'Great ?' Kimi interupted you 'Great really ? Between March and november I only see you 5 days in a month due to race week end, training session, simulator days and you are thinking that was great ? Ok definitely you don't have the same point of view Y/N. So it's ok we're done, leave me alone'.

That was the last word Kimi said to you...

Two month after that horrible talk, you had a text from Kimi... He wanted to know if you want to come to a race, because he knows that you love racing and because he missed you. You missed him too, you thought that would be easy to live without him because you didn't see him really often. But his text, his calls and more that that the way you cuddled when he was back was unforgettable. 'I will pick up at your house, we will take the same plane' you saw on your screen.

Few days later, you are ready to take a flight to formula one Grand Prix, you love fast cars and you used to go at every race with your father. That's why you fell in love with formula one and you met Kimi.. You heard someone knocking on your door, your heart is beating now faster... You are anxious to see him after two month.. When you opened the door you saw that ocean blue eyes which memerized you, you saw his lips curved when he said you name and you remembered the feeling of his sweat lips when he kissed your cheek. You blushed a little and said 'Come in Kimi'. Both of you didn't talk a lot, he explained you his last two month and how busy he was and he added 'I didn't have enough time to think about oursleves...' you simply replied 'Yeah and it's was easier like that, I didn't think about you a lot, I mean until your text'. How a bad liar you are you immediately thought...

Kimi and you were pretty close and you not him really well.. You looked at him, he sank his eyes into yours and you laughed simultaneously 'You can tell yourself that but I know how we both really feel'

'A new and fresh start ?' you said while you took his hand 'This week end will be a test...'