Langst one shots

Fears

Lance has learned a lot about himself while he has been in space. He has learned he is actually Astrophobia which ironically is the fear of space. Thanks to the space shoot(or whatever it's called idk) and that they are millions of light years away from earth. They are farther than any earth telescopes. He also has Atelophobia is fear of not being good enough. He trains endlessly and Shiro and Allura still don't think he's good enough. He learns that when he tells jokes to lighten the mood, they don't care. Do to that he has Philophobia. Fear of no one liking you. When all these fears rolled into one, surprise! It equals anxiety and depression! Lance is so so afraid to do half the things he has to like. Go into space, train with people, and just be with people. Is getting harder and harder on him.
"If we enter through here then we'd be able to get in." Shiro was trying to make a plan
"Well if we do that, it's right next to where pilots get in for launch. We'd be ambushed." Pidge was trying to reason with Shiro
"Maybe if we try right here we wouldn't be ambushed." Keith tried to point out a spot
"Yes but it would take to long to go and get the information." Hunk disagreed with Keith
"Hey guys we could get in right-" Lance tried to tell his idea but was cut off by Allura
"Not now Lance, no jokes."
"It wasn't a joke." Lance seemed annoyed that the thought it was a joke
"Sure it wasn't." Keith sounded sarcastic
"It wasn't. Seriously if you break right there we would land in a control center. 2 of is go in and the rest stay out and fight in the air. The place would be un occupied since it holds people who fight so they would be out. And if they're some then we can just shoot them. Get in get out." Lance just spit it out
"Jesus you didn't have to plan everything for us." Keith sounded annoyed
"I'm just putting in my input. I'm leaving tell me what plan we're using at dinner." Lance got up and left. When he got to his room he grabbed his razor. Knowing he had to be alive for dinner and for the mission he only made a few light cuts. They still bled a lot though. Lance didn't bother to wrap then he'll do it after dinner. The lights flicked 3 times meaning dinner. He started walking to the dinning hall. Here's the ketch he forgot his jacket. And his sleeves are 3 quarters of a normal sleeve so it showed his cuts. Lance didn't realize that he didn't have it on.
"Lance your plan worked the best we're using it."
"Really? Thanks!" Lance seemed surprised
Lance grabbed his space goo and started eating. Keith took a quick glance at Lances wrist thinking nothing of it he looked back at his food took a bite. Almost spit out that bite and look back at Lances wrist and saw all the cuts.
"Lance? Whats that on your wrists?"
"Hm?" Lance looked down at his wrists.
"Nothing!"
"Sure seems like something." Keith sounded cautious.
"It's nothing I swear! I'm going to bed!" Lance got up but Keith was quicker. Keith grabbed Lances arm. Lance winced.
"What the hell Keith just get off of me!"
Shiro was watching about to intervene, Pidge sunk into their chair and Hunk went to the Kitchen. Allura and Coran were all ready done eating and finalizing the plan.
"Let me see your arms!"
"Why should I!"
Shiro was really close to intervening when Keith said something that stopped him.
"Because I saw cuts Lance."
Everyone in the room went silent and Lance pulled out of Keiths death grip on his arm.
"Fuck you." Lance ran to his room and grabbed his razor. This was the end he decided FUCK IT! They knew he cut and he would kill himself eventually so why not do it now. He heard banging on the door while he quickly wrote his note. He heard Keith he heard Pidge he heard Shiro he heard Hunk. All of these people made him have some of these feelings he looked at the door one last time and put the razor to his throat and cut. He fell to the floor. And started coughing up blood. Things started going black. Everything was in slow motion. He saw Keith run in he was yelling. He and Shiro picked him up. Pidge found the note. They got Lance into the pod. He was nearly dead.
"I found the note."
"Read it?"
"Keith can you? I don't know if I can?"
"Yeah." Keith took the note from them and started to read.
"I Lance McClain have learned a lot about myself while I have been in space. I have learned that I actually have Astrophobia which ironically is the fear of space. Thanks to the space shoot(or whatever it's called idk) and that we are millions of light years away from earth. We are farther than any earth telescopes. I also also have Atelophobia is fear of not being good enough. I train endlessly and Shiro and Allura still don't think I'm good enough. I learned that when I tells jokes to lighten the mood, they don't care. Do to that I have Philophobia. Fear of no one liking you. When all these fears rolled into one, surprise! It equals anxiety and depression! I am so so afraid to do half the things I have  to do like. Go into space, train with people, and just be with people. Is getting harder and harder on me. Hunk, my man don't blame yourself. Pidge keep doing your computer stuff. Shiro be more kind to everyone. Allura, the same as Shiro. Coran, thanks for always being there for me. Keith, so sad I never got to tell you how much I loved you. Goodbye tell my family I loved them and I'm sorry.
Love,
Lance McClain, Blue Paladin."
Keith was in tears. So was Hunk and Pidge. Shiro was shocked that he helped drive someone to do this when all he wanted to do was help.
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The pod opened about a week later. Shiro was nicer so was Allura. Keith and Lance were closer than ever. Pidge thinks they've fucked. Everyone is generally happy most of the time, and Lance gets to help plan all the missions and no one is left out. The one thing that reminds him of what he did are the scars on his arms and the scar on his neck.

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