Langst one shots

Smol rant

So hey, whoever is reading this, my readers or not, I am outing myself pretty much but here it is, I am pansexual, no I don't love cooking pans. But people, who I haven't told have found out and they are spreading rumors. While other kids at laughing at me I am here proud of who I am. I am like most kids in my school, only I'm not male I'm not female. On Girls vs. Boys day, I wore purple, and mine was because one, I am a feminist and two well I told you. It was the best day ever so many people were wearing purple at my school or girls were wearing blue and guys wearing pink. And yet they laugh at me for  being pan. It could be worse they could know about my anxiety and depression. My jeebas. I try to be kind to everyone, and now, this is the repay. Sure let it come. Let it hit me in the face but I have people who will support me. I am so close to just saying screw it why bother to fit in just be me. And I want to do that so be, but kids in 8th through high school kids are ruthless.  I mean heck, 2 of my past boyfriends hurt me mentally. But I gave them another chance. My mom says it's because I'm too kind. I mean that's true. I hate they way this world is now. Always at war. Me being afraid I am going to be killed in my sleep due to a nuclear attack! I don't want to live through a WW3 I don't want to see all the pain this world. I hate it. I mean, I get yelled at by random people for wanting equal rights for everyone. Not just male and female Caucasians. I want it for everyone. I want to go To a pride festival, or go to a protest! And I'm afraid I will get hurt! But I am just like the kids in my life. They don't like me because they think that am far to different from what they want. They like hot not so smart girls. But I am not very hot but I am smart but kids think that's wrong for girls to like STEM. And yet I am just like them wanting to fit in. Afraid of any slight noise that we hear in our school when everything is quiet. We are all afraid that we will be the next school to be shot at. I want to protest. But they say I am to young. I want to fight in the navy. They say I'm not smart of fit enough. That I wouldn't survive a day. Man this took a turn. Huh. Just fight with me! Stand with me! Be proud of who you are! Support those fighting against tyranny! Pray for the families effected by the shootings! Stand up for what's right! Stand up against people who hate what you want to love!  Who wants to fight for equality everywhere! If you go to protests please be safe. If you silently protest. Still be safe from cyber bullies.

Sorry for this late night rant, I just had to get it off my chest.