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26 How many dudes you know roll like me? RYANS POV

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RYANS POV PEOPLE!!!! RYANS POV!

Ana makes me so angry sometimes. She's like this unattainable dream that's become a reality. And right now I can feel her slip away from me.

Before there wasn't an obstacle. Then he came along and ruined everything.

Like a path had finally cleared and suddenly the cliff side tore itself down and cut me off again.

I stare at her and she is perfection personified, even with the cuts and bruises everywhere. The 1st wonder of the world, and I have the pleasure of her company. Yet it's still incomplete. She's not mine completely. And I knew as soon as she looked at me this afternoon. I saw the shock and denial in her eyes. I sat down next to her on her bed; the cute purple covers definitely match her personality. My eyes never leave her face. It's so quiet in the room, the tension reaching ever higher and I didn't want to break it.

'What really happened Ana?' I whispered and her eyes looked away from me. Shame, embarrassment. That's what she's feeling and it's annoying me.

'I told you, I fell down a cliff.' She says it diligently, as if trying to convince herself more than me that nothing happened when she left school.

'Ok, well what happened before that. Tell me everything Ana.' I demanded, getting worked up that she wouldn't tell me a thing about her and Damien. I know that guy's keen on her; I've seen the way he looks at her like a piece of meat. Ana is a prize cut, the whole school knows that, only Ana is ignorant to any male feelings towards her. I should know, I've tried every way in the book that you can ask someone to go out with you on her. And confess their love. She just thinks it's a big joke every time and that I'm only there to annoy her.

I was so glad for the weekend that just past. I was sick of playing the annoying jock role. I was absolutely ready to be someone in her life. And when I saw her on that deck it totally made my day. I shared a piece of my life with her and over the course of two days I saw her change the way she recognises me. I saw her gaze soften slightly and the hate was replaced with... love.

Ha I wish.

But at least the hate was gone. However, I did love winding her up.

'Well Damien and I went to Mako bay and went on the trail and on the way back down I got a little carried away and fell down the side of the cliff but Damien was there and he saved me and took me to the hospital and brought me home so here I am.' She rambled, carefully piecing the puzzle together. I knotted my eyebrows in thought as I tried to figure out the missing pieces.

She's not going to tell me.

It's game over.

I don't know whether to be annoyed or disappointed.

I give it one more go and ask, 'And is that all that happened?' I wanted to look into her eyes and her tell me the truth. I searched hard, my gaze unwavering but her eyes... the sparkle slowly disappeared from them and I knew absolutely in that moment that she had chosen him over me. I wasn't even an option. I know she's trying to hide it from me, probably to spare my feelings or something but it just makes me feel pathetic for liking her for so long and never really taking it very seriously.

On the weekend it felt amazing to be able to let her into my world, I've been so alone for so long and she was a ray of sunshine in my pit of despair. And now the light is fading fast. I need to save it, I need it in my life; I need her.

'Well? Ana?' I ask, getting a little impatient with her and her constant daydreaming. Don't get me wrong, she's incredibly cute when she day dreams, it's just that now is not the time.

'Yes, that's all that happened Ryan, just chill. I'm here, I'm fine. Ok?' she says, trying to reassure me but it just doesn't work. She's here with me in body, but not in heart. I nodded, showing her a little understanding. I see her eyes flutter with relief at my 'fake' belief in her words.

She's so cute I can't help myself.

I want to touch her so bad. I want her smile all to myself.

'So, what are you doing here anyway?' Ana asks and I know she's just changing the subject.

I resign myself to the fact that she will only be my friend from now on. I need to be happy with that. I had a lot less than that three days ago. This is a major step up. But I can't help myself, I want to be selfish and have her to myself. Why can't that happen? Why do things never go my way?

'J invited me over to play Game boy. I haven't played Pokémon in years.' I told her, getting excited over the fact that Pokémon was like my favourite game back in the days and talking to J today was really cool, it also made me think of why I wasn't friends with all those boys a lot earlier.

I guess I thought it would be hard to crack into the group since they've all known each other since like kindy but they are totally cool. And it surprised me how alike we all were. We all pretty much like all of the same things, so it was really easy to integrate myself in their group.

I noticed Ana's interest peak at the mention of Game boy and Pokémon. She was still in a little state of disbelief but I knew that her mind was ticking over all the memories she had. 'Are you being serious right now?' she asked and I couldn't help it, my mind went into overdrive over the thought of getting to play Pokémon. I let a huge grin escape and I notice her mood change instantly. I decide that now's the time to pull my Game boy out and she let out a gasp and exclaimed, 'Oh my gosh which game do you have?' I could tell that she was quickly forgetting about our conversation that happened only moments ago.

She started to get up and I was a little worried about her ankle but she didn't seem too fazed by it. 'I have leaf green. You?' I asked while she started pulling a box out from under the bed. It was covered in newspaper and surfing label stickers. It must be a memory box or something.

She lifted the lid and there were so many things in it. I could see letters, certificates, little toys and ornaments, so many secrets were in that box and I was itching to have a look around and find out any and everything I could about her.

She finally found her Game boy, which was the light blue one and managed to pull out the charger aswell. 'Oh I have sapphire, and J's got fire red. Come on let's go!' she said as she got up and held her hand out for me. I was in ecstasy right now. This is the second time she has held her hand out for me, and right now I want to grab it and never let go. I grabbed hold of her arm aswell as we walked across to J's room. We walked in and they were all on Game boys totally engrossed in whatever was happening. I could feel the waves of excitement rolling off Ana as soon as we walked in the room.

She released herself from me and went and sat next to Ben. I was slightly annoyed but I guess she's just enjoying herself and I really need to learn to share. I just had her to myself for 5 minutes, which is a lot longer than what I used to get from her.

I went and sat next to Alex, he's a cool guy, I really like him, he's not as showy as Caleb or Ben, really chill and I can tell we'll get to be good mates. 'Hey bro, are we starting again or what?' I asked, unsure of whether I really want to delete my profile. Last time I checked I was close to cracking it.

'Oh, we have to start again aye, so delete and restart!' Alex said and so I turned on my Game boy and let the good times roll...