How Many dudes you know roll like me? Not many, if any

43 How many dudes you know roll like me? Not many, if any

New chapter! Yay!

Anyway I just want to say before you guys started reading, that this chapter has quite a lot of swearing in it. (Thanks to J) Just putting out a warning for those of you who may not be comfortable with swearing all the time. 

Ok, enjoy! 

Oh and my heart goes out to those in Christchurch and now Japan! Aroha Aroha Aroha to you all.

Katary

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After standing in the same spot for at least five minutes having a raging debate in my head on whether I should run back to my room or face what’s happening in the living room, I decided I should just get this part of my life over and move on.

I was being so totally pathetic. But can’t we all sometimes? Am I not allowed to wallow in self pity at my ridiculously stupid actions?

I took a few deep breaths to calm myself down before I walked in but that didn’t help to quell the nervousness seeping through my skin.

I noticed it was all of the boys plus Ryan. So he was still here. That made everything like fifty million times worse than it already was.

They all were a little startled when I walked in the room however they recovered quickly which gave me a little relief.

I gave them all a weak smile and J made some space for me on the couch.

The awkward silence that filled the room was insane. I needed an invisibility cloak right now.

‘I know what you’re thinking.’ Ben said.

I looked over at him and lifted my brow.

‘You wish you had an invisibility cloak aye?’ He asked and I was the least to say, surprised at how right he was.

I burst into laughter and soon enough everyone else was following suit. I was nodding my head frantically to let them all know that he was right and when they figured it out; their laughter became a lot more genuine.

I tried my hardest not to cry while I was laughing, but I had laughed so hard that the tears started streamed out. I also tried my hardest to make sure those tears were only tears of joy. But no such luck.

I seriously thought I had ran out of tears down at the beach, I mean, where was all this liquid coming from? I hadn’t had anything to drink all morning so why the hell am I crying so much?

I noticed the boys slowly stopped laughing and I took that as my cue to get up and run away like the little immature girl that I am.

I ran upstairs into J’s bedroom; I knew I could find peace there. I didn’t want to see or speak to Jules or Ma just yet.