How Many dudes you know roll like me? Not many, if any

44 How many dudes you know roll like me? Not many, if any

Hey peeps!

Just spent an amazing weekend in Taupo, I love being a tourist in my own country! Makes me love NZ even more!

Anyways, back on topic, new chap, hope you guys enjoy it. It's got some Ryan up in there! I know ya'll missed him!

<3

Katary

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I felt another jab in the side, and woke up from my little mind rant.

J grabbed the controller off me; and started playing the game. I guess he was over talking to me now.

I felt a little better inside, and I felt I could face everyone in the house now, not run away like a pathetic person.

I got up and started to walk out. When I opened the door, Ryan was there, waiting.

I closed the door, hoping it wasn’t me he was looking for.

I’m too naïve and hopeful.

‘Can we talk?’ he asked, his voice strangely quiet yet serious. I looked down and nodded. I took the lead, considering Ryan probably has no idea where to go in our house.

I took him to my parents’ room at the end of the corridor, and I sat on their white bed and realised how shameful it was to be in this room with Ryan.

Not because of him but because of me. I had brought shame upon my family, and felt like I was about to be reprimanded because of it.

I stayed quiet; I had no idea what to say.

‘So is it true?’ I heard his voice, it sounded far away and I realised he hadn’t moved from the door. My eyes drifted back down to the floor again.

If your eyes reflected what was in your soul at that moment, I really didn’t want Ryan to see what was reflected in mine.

What do you say to someone who asks that question? What’s the right thing to say?

If you say no, they won’t believe you. You cried your little heart out in front of them. You fell asleep in front of them. Of course it’s true.

So what will happen if I say yes? Disappointment? Anger? Acceptance?

For sure he wouldn’t be happy about it. I mean, the guys been chasing me for months. I finally give him a glimpse of my life and he ends up with a blubbering mess at the end of it. Nearly makes me want to cry all over again.