Kylo Ren | Reader Inserts

Divide And Unite

Request:

idk if you're taking requests but I have one you may like. a kylo one set during the events of tlj where he's all stressed about everything going on and that makes him kinda distant from you (married I guess?) and so that makes you feel sad/upset and one night when y'all are in bed you tell him "I love you" but he just doesn't respond so you cry urself to sleep and then the next day (or few days, whichever) he's apologetic and what not. angst but fluff you know?

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The stress on Kylo Ren's shoulder's were unbearable. After the fall of the Starkiller Base, he had felt himself falling deeper in the madness of his mind.

He felt as if he wasn't progressing nor succeeding, he felt as if he was being held back... as if he weren't at his full potential. Just as before, when he was training to be a Jedi.

Kylo felt as if he were only being used by the Supreme Leader only to rid the Jedi and nothing more—when Kylo knew he could've done greater. He was promised for greater things, yet none had come.

So, he took it in himself. He allowed the Supreme Leader to toss him around like a rag doll, mess with his mind and "manipulate" him until he was satisfied. When, in reality, Kylo had a plan.

There was so much in his mind, plenty of factors that added to his plan. He knew what he had to do. He had to kill his past in order to become what he was meant to be.

Even if that meant distancing himself from you.

In reality, you were the only good that came from being under Snoke's guidance and ruling. As Kylo had trained and commanded the First Order, he had met you. A fine TIE fighter pilot, one of the greatest in the Order. You always got yourself out of everything—including an encounter with the well know Resistance pilot Poe Dameron.

You and Kylo had a unique relationship, he wasn't one to talk much and you were unsure as to how you even got together in the first place... yet, you found yourself married to him. And that was one thing Kylo had given to Snoke. He allowed Kylo to have such intimacy if that meant bearing a child who could more than likely be a Force user—which Kylo never went through with, he wasn't going to use you just to have a child.

He loved you.

Or so you thought he had.

Ever since Starkiller's destruction, Kylo had been very distant with you. Late nights unable to sleep without Kylo there to hold you... or for you to hold on to. Afternoons spent silently, not a sign of Kylo to stop by and greet you. Mornings spent lonely, no one to share coffee with or hello's to. And it was eating away at you.

You loved Kylo, you saw past the exterior he had built for himself like an armor. You saw the man he truly was... and not just someone who was broken, but someone who was strong and full of potential. Someone worth so much more... someone who was better than just being an apprentice pushed to do things.

And you liked to remind him often of that. Not to make him happy, but because you truly believed it in your heart.

But now it was hard to remind him when he barely even spoke to you... let alone, looked at you.

You wish things weren't changing between the two of you. You missed the way it was before, where he only showed you his sweet and caring side. When he held you close at night and in the morning. When he'd wake up from a nightmare only to have you cradle him. When you shared showers or baths... when you two were intimate and passionate.